recent purchases post! (i’m trying… lol)

i have always purchased these cheerleader shorts because of how comfy they are, and i found these prints on amazon.com.  i didn’t even realize they made printed ones because modell’s (where i usually buy them) only has solids, but i search amazon for random shit all the time and was pleasantly surprised

no idea what made me buy the teal tunic, because i never dress like a girl, but i saw it months ago and never got it and finally caved. now i need a cute belt so that i can actually wear it… it reminds me of some shit my mom would have worn in the 80′s. it’s super cheap and feels kinda gross, though. it’s all nylon or polyester or some shit…

i have been on a TOMS kick, so i got those red shoes. i have another pair of the stone-wash ones and i like the texture/colour, so i got those instead of the solids.

the tshirt was $7 on ebay, how could i even pass that up?! it’s so 1990′s, lol… i love it.

i absolutely loved this article and the quote below brought tears back to my eyes: (and it makes me want to go to the home opener so badly, but i will def. be crying if i do… the emotions will be high there that game.)

“Nevertheless, I know I am not the only one who had been looking forward to the Rangers home opener, and hearing the announcer say, “Number Ninety-four, Derek Boooooooooooogaaaaard,” and watching him step onto the ice, a battleship among the swifter, more diminutive members of the fleet.” – alec wilkinson

once colton orr was gone, i was so excited when derek boogaard stepped up. he was a feisty little brute! (or a rather large one…) and although brandon prust kicks a lot of arse on the ice, i really loved boogey. i couldn’t wait for his shoulder to heal, and for him to be back next season. for most of this season, he was out because of injury.

they found boogey deceased in his apartment today. he was only 28 years old
there hasn’t been any information on how he passed away.

to be honest with you, i can’t remember the last time i shed tears for someone of “celebrity” status – but i shed some ranger tears tonight.

i think i might have to rock a jersey all day tomorrow in honor of the NYR loss<3

this sucks.

oh hell  yes, i just bought this.

omg lol
every time i see this, i keep thinking “thissss isssssss spartaaaaaaaaaaa!”

also: i can’t wait until it’s gone…

…sorry if you’re not into hockey.  but i am a ranger fan and i need to complain someplace!!!

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so a few of my friends and i went to the ranger game thursday night…  i was meeting up with ricky at what i thought was the chase at the front of madison square garden, but he was elsewhere.  so i heard my name being called, and when i looked up, i found my homegirl lauren waiting for her sister.  she was sitting on the wall staying off of her feet because she has a fractured heel, and we chatted it up until ricky found us.  her sister happened to walk up at the same time so we headed inside.

so since lauren was injured, wearing a boot and on crutches, she got to take the elevator upstairs into the garden instead of taking the escalators. since we were all sitting in the 300′s, we went up together…  so after waiting what seemed like forever, all four of us joined the elevator worker and were on our way until we stopped for a pick-up.  the elevator dude poked his head out and asked if all four of us minded waiting for “mr. messier”, and we were all like “yeah okay”, lol.  we were all thinking he was kidding, and two minutes later he boarded the elevator!

we weren’t really star-struck, it was more just like disbelief because were all thinking that the elevator guy was just joking…  lol, he got on with a huge smile and chit chatted with us.  i don’t remember wtf i said to him, i just remember staring into his face like “IS THIS REAL LIFE???” – something along the lines of “good and hello” or some other non-important bs… lauren told him about how she injured herself up in boston after the game a couple of weeks ago and her sister chatted with him too. i don’t remember if ricky said anything, but i remember him just looking at him in awe… it was cute, lol.

we were all so out of it that we completely forgot to ask for a photo but whatever, it was the highlight of our night since the rangers lost HORRIBLY…

we’ve gotta pray for a miracle this weekend… hitting OT in the next game and a hurricanes loss would do the trick. everyone keep your fingers crossed for me

i hate facing this heartbreak… last years loss to the flyers at the end of the year was disgusting. poor erica and i were crying silently on the living room floor in the dark

LETS GO RANGERS! PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE my dudes<3333

it was only appropriate that i own this shirt…  hehehehehehehehe :)  #best

#becauseimatotal13yroldhornball lol
i would never… i was just fucking around online.
i’d either get henrik or avery… still deciding!

since my coming of age around 12/13 i absorbed and turned into:

an r&b and hip-hop head, an alternative/grunge and punk lover, a beavis & butthead (and daria) addict, a tommy hil and nautica consumer, a huge advocate of handball and public nyc parks, a rocker of a black bugaboo columbia jacket, a drinker of the finest st. ides special brew and liquors around all by 14, a super nintendo gamer nerd, a misfits addict, a graphic designer, a web designer, a super-sneaker-out-of-the-houser, a great kisser, a roamer of queens in general, a bay terrace mallrat, a thief kleptomaniac, a greenwich village dweller, a make-out slut, a smoker of pot, an adopted latina, a stoop dweller, a total hard ass, a pin cushion (i’ve had like, 11 piercings), a mosher, a friend of vampires, an MTV offices regular, a raver, a lover of anything with synth in it, a mild drug user (e), a cam girl, a blogger, a saucony’s/vans girl, an awesome girlfriend to few, a frequent MTA rider, a south-bronx dweller, a ska-loving skanker, a chick magnet, a  bouncing souls show regular, a high school graduate, a video store clerk/manager, a jackass addict, an ikea addict, a tony hawk pro skater pro, an aimless whitestone stroller, a myspace fan, a graffiti lover, a sparks drinker, a roommate, a loner, a restaurant manager, a toughlover<3, a pet owner, a traveler, a glassjaw addict, a camper, a wifey, a guest list dweller, a mistress, a canvas for a few tattoo artists, a full-time website developer, someone with multi-colour hair, a brooklyn resident, a ranger fan (again<3), a tweeter, and most importantly a (self-destructively/overly loyal) good friend… etc.

which leaves me feeling like i love how all over the place i’ve been, good and bad.
i’ve also been realizing as i get older that NYC is really fucking tiny. and the older i get, the closer the social circles are linked.
(this has been proven many times in the last year…)

alrighty! now that it’s officially december… i’m putting x-mas website wallpapers into the random background rotation here, and going to try to get into the spirit.

i haven’t enjoyed christmas in a long time… not because of anything jess-dramatic or bad associations with anything like the rest of my wretched life… christmas eve a few years ago was when my first aunt that died was really sick with lung cancer, emphysema and a lung infection. it was also around the same time that my other aunt had to get triple-bypass surgery… traumatic stuff, man.

when i was a kid, my aunt necie (the bypass surgery aunt) always hosted christmas eve… she had the biggest tree and a big house and everyone used to come over. she is my mothers sister, one of 7 sisters and 1 brother, so you can only imagine how packed the house was with each of them there and having at least two children there with them…

anyways, the year that aunt necie had the surgery she stopped hosting christmas eve. and it was really hard for my mother, my sister and i because that’s what we did ever since i was born. now we just feel kind of lost. and it’s sad that we all still don’t gather over there, but she just doesn’t want us to. and even though aunt carol didn’t die on christmas eve or day that year, i think we all associate that with this time of year.

on friday, jes and i are going to pick up a small christmas tree for my apartment. i wasn’t moved in last year in time for one, i wasn’t actually living/sleeping here until new years day… so it’ll be my first holiday here.

she bought me my first ornament for my tree, and friday we’ll be picking up a few more. i want to put together a fun christmas play list for us to get snookered to while we eat soft baked cookies, decorate my tree and hang lights. i have been searching everywhere on the internet for that madness “our house” and jingle bells mix from the new verizon commercial – it sounds awesome! and it got me all pumped for christmas…

i’ll have to put a play list together tomorrow because on thursday… rangers vs. the islanders. and i will be there.

steve kept asking me last night why i don’t have a ranger tattoo yet… he said it would really suit me and i guess it would be pretty damn appropriate…. but i’ve only been a ranger fan again for like two or three years… (i was on a hiatus for a decade due to a horrifying mental association of them and walking in on my mother (ugh sexual things, eww #WORST) when they won the cup in ’94. – i went running in screaming in excitement and was scarred visually for years yeah, it was that bad.) at any rate, i feel like i have to wait a while before i commit to one? not that my love is going to change for them… i’m probably not making any sense. i would totally get the shield. i should…

YEAH!

i had a dream last night that someone was talking to me about the rangers salute and i told them that it gives me goosebumps…  aww<3 i can’t wait.  ONE MORE MONTHHHHHHH.

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII CANTTTTTTTTTTTT WAITTTTTTTTTTTT!!!<3333333

i’m usually team lilo, but this just crosses the line. when you bring my ranger boys into it, you’ve tainted my love for you. at least, temporarily…

pfft, puta borracha.

“Lindsay Lohan’s Assault On Booze Continues”

soooooo wednesday night was that ranger game in 3D! (vs. the islanders) – we won 5-0 – YAYYYYYYYYYYY shut out for lundqvist<3

(that’s erica and i<3)

so yeah, apparently this was the first time a hockey game was ever aired in 3D – and we did it right from MSG theater just downstairs from the actual game… we had so much fun… i got seats three rows from the stage/screen right in the center. not bad at all. we met up with my home girl lauren (finally!)… she said it looked better from a little further back… it was groovy either way. i would invest in a 3D tv for sure – i’ve had my big, clunky tv for ages now – if there would be a time to move forward it would def. be for that and saving space, lol…

nothing beats going to a real game, but i’m glad i got to be part of ranger history WOO!

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got tix for erica and i today<333
i hope this shit is innovatively intense!

it’s these stupid little things in life honestly just really make me happy…

i couldn’t find one of these little pins for a while, luckily i found someone who got crafty!

rangers vs. the devils

3-0 in the 2nd

this game is currently fantastic.

fighting, scoring, MARTY CHANTS…
best best best!

now all we need is a shutout for lundqvist<3

my poor rangers have been le sucking for a bit, my poor dubes has been out because of his broken hand…

glassjaw played at nassau coliseum (BARF! – home of the islanders)

a) long island kids are the worst &&& b) FUCK the islanders

i took this picture in the bathroom FILLED WITH ISLANDERS COLOURS – i expressed how uncomfortable i felt about it via my face, lol. (not such a flattering picture, i look so fat – haha)

oh yeah, glassjaw was good. but it was a very quick set… quite brilliant.<3

so i went over to erica’s tonight to watch the rangers vs. islanders game, and there was this tiny asian girl running around the house. this was quite perplexing, seeing as that there are three colombian people living in the house, but it turned out to be erica’s cousin ben’s friend’s kid.

first thing she does is look at me and goes “WHO ARE YOU?”. i’m like ??? WHO ARE YOU??? lol. and so i sit down to eat and she starts walking underneath the eat in kitchen bar thing and starts tickling my feet and then my back. i’m like dude, who are you? HOW OLD ARE YOU? lol… i needed details.

she was four, and her name was faith.

she told me that my pasta was gross and she kept tickling my sides and then started scratching my back and then ran away into bens room… a few minutes later she comes back and asks me “why is your hair orange?”. she said her daddy didn’t like it, and that i’m the “crazy” girl… so i called erica’s cousin ben out to the kitchen to explain how little children work. if they hear something, the repeat it. he kinda laughed and tried to explain why he said it.

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i had a lovely weekend

spent a lot of time with erica – actually a lot of the last week was spent with her. i want to get in as much time as i can while i’m still living over here… we had dinner together, hung out at the house because the weather was shit… got drunk. then i wobbled over to the knights to see my love jennifer<333 we drank, had some laughs, went across to the diner and had a romantic late night snack<3 and then we went home... (after waiting an hour for our cabs - worst!)

saturday i slept in and then george asked me if i wanted to go out with him to some bar and it wound up being his brothers birthday. soooo i met his brother (and his fiancé) for the first time at a german restaurant/bar in long island city. it was a lot of fun, they were both super nice we watched the ranger game (it was the first game against scott gomez<3 ugh. anddd the rangers lost, meh.) and then we left after a while... cuddlefest! best!<3 </CORNBALL>

george dropped me off this afternoon and erica and i picked right back up where we left off, chowing down @ cinco de mayo (shocker) drunk&sober by 7PM. we watched the yankee/angels game and then we went shopping and here i sit typing this. when i should have hair dye on my head.

will do that now.

stillllllll can’t find my purple haze dye feck.

it’s 1AM… i wanted to be in bed sleeping already but of course i got caught up in some other stuff tonight.

went to erica’s, watched the game. the rangers lost (boo).

went to get food @ casci’s… ran into so many people<3
went to the bar to see my dad (KK!), watched the yankees lose (yay).
got loose, went home.

i just wanted to see my fafi tonight, and i couldn’t.
it’s so frustrating when you just want to see someone and you can’t.
i just want to spoon him all night. (lol)

i kinda want to throw a fit, lol.

i want to stay home tomorrow.
i want to veg out, watch tv, sleep in, do nothing.
(damn work getting in the way)

i don’t even know what i’m doing this weekend. i can’t remember if i made any plans or not.

i just want to move into my new place and get settled. living out of two bags and the shit in my dresser is making me nutso.

i’m going to bed.

friday night consisted offffffff:
my darling jennifer, frankie and a few of his friends, and ilya hangin’ out at our apartment… made some super tasty red wine sangria with the lovely taylor mmm… cut a flap off of the tip of one my friggin’ fingers, eep. got inebriated and cuddled with my lovies…

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a) my sisters father is dying (yeah, we have different dads) – he was in my life from when i was a baby until i was like five/six…  i looked at him as my father.  apparently his lungs/heart are failing and he’s in a wheelchair, weighing 115 lbs.
b) the rangers lost and are out of the playoffs.  their season is over.

totally not comparable, i understand that.
but never the less, they both made me cry tonight.

you talented mother fucker…  this is why i love you.<3333
(click here, and fast forward to 2:30 – what?????!!!!! …BEST!)

may 1st is just ’round the corner!!! – so i got a lot of shit packed, my walls are looking mighty bare, and it’s so weird.  i hate it.  it’s freaking me out.  i won’t live here anymore…  ever again.  not with mommy either.  not that it’s cut the cord type shit around here, most of the time we can just live together without pissing each other off, and i just love her.  i kinda find it funny/ironic that the apartment we lived in together when it was just me and her when i was a weee little stu (1-4 yrs old),  before sarah was born is directly around the corner from this apartment i’m typing from right now…  and now i’m leaving her from here…

predestined paths.

(i believe in life magic, lol)

there are little white dots all over the walls from where i had stuff taped up, my monster collage walls…  still nowhere near as bad as my old house, but enough…

…i’m gonna miss my little mid-urb neighborhood…  i realized that last night when i was getting home from work.  i had to leave early because of ridiculously horrible cramps, and wound up being back here while it was still light out.  and quite warm.  – i love spring time so much.  and it looks so pretty around here – all the big/little houses with such character (especially the tudors! – fave!) – flowers and trees…  not buildings and hustle/bustle…  well not too much of it anyways, especially on my side streets…

in fact walking home during spring/summer and fall nights from bell is one of my favorite things in the world.  once the warm weather hits, i live for it.  good exercise and it clears the head…  so this weekend, i gotta fit it in before i won’t be around all the time.  especially to sleep here…  although i’m sure i’ll be here for many drunken nights that i’ll end up crashing on the couch…  haha i’m acting like i’m gonna be in another state or country…  but brooklyn – especially where i’m going to be – is kinda far.  especially when you don’t drive.  and now i REALLY don’t have the need to, lol.  and i think it’s gonna be a way different crowd than around here.

BLAH BLAH BLAH.
i’ve got a closet the size of  a small bedroom and a red haired italian boy to get tattoo’d with often!

so…  in other news.  the rangers won tonight (snoozefest, i know – but it’s the playoffs! – GO LUNDQVIST! GO DUBEY!<333) anddd i finally got my rosary ring that i had ordered… one size too big – so it’s on my middle finger instead of my ring finger…
(note to self: SIZE 5 ring finger.)

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iiiiiiiiii can’t believe tomorrow is friday already, my week has flown by!  and thank god, because i’m exhausted.  can’t wait to attempt this whole “sleeping in” thing, again.

so this week.  what’d i do?

tonight i went to erica’s.  i always get there by means of the LIRR.  i feel like such a freak on the LIRR.  everyone’s coming home from their hard day at work in their suits, all playing with their mobile devices – calling their wives or husbands, sipping their vodka or beers, getting ready for their ride to their comfy long island homes…  and they all seem to stare at the weird girl with the multi-colour hair and nose ring…  so i usually put the nose ring up inside so it’s not visible…  but i still get all those ??? looks from the old men and women…  or the young guys my age who seem to simply be on a different path in life, whatever.  i don’t know why it even bothers me…  i’m more of a lovely human being than the people with their shit together it seems…

for example…  yesterday on the LIRR…

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so here’s the purple hair that i worked so hard to get on friday… stupid bleaching… dying… blah.

i’m blogging in the middle of  a ranger game, what a dumb idea.  i’m very distracted and have nothing to say because of it.  haha, so unfocused.

oh i’ll update later…

yes, yesssssssssssssss – come to me dubey…<3

i went with frankie to get it, his cousin (bert krak) does tattoo’s for a spot near my house – and @ smith street tattoo a couple of days a week…  i love it, i’ve been meaning to get a 4 leaf clover since my sister did a few years ago – and going to that dropkick show a few weeks ago, got me fiending too – there were celtic tattoos and shamrock tattoo’s EVERYWHERE.  (drool!)

apparently, it was bert’s 3rd shamrock tattoo in three consecutive days.  so hopefully it’s super lucky! (third time’s a charm he said)

not too exciting, went to work…  i haven’t gone out for st. patty’s and celebrated in over 2 years…  but maybe that’s a good thing.  people looked like morons stumbling all throughout penn station at 6:30 pm…

…although i tweeted about it already, i’ll blabber on here about how earlier in the afternoon, i saw jason schwartzman in the health food market thing by my job… (the overpriced organic store) – and i honestly just thought he was someone i knew, so i gave him exactly that look.. and 2 seconds later it hit me… who he was and that he must have thought i was going to maul him in hopes of some sort of contact – he had that “i’ve been spotted” face on, and shuffled into an aisle to hide – boo that. apparently he lives in dumbo…  but i’ve never seen him around…  i’ve only seen jermaine dupri, denis leary, a gossip girl and spike lee… (that rude DICK.)

tonight i went home to erica, we had dinner and watched a nutso ranger game. (yes, we won.)
i’ll spare you all the nail biting details. go look up the highlights if you care…  it was INSANE!

i’m sitting here dying my bangs, bored…  looking forward to tomorrow’s weather…  i keep saying i should have taken off tomorrow but i didn’t even go out tonight, i’m lame.  would have been a wasted day off… bell blvd. looked annoyingly packed and rowdy, so maybe it was for the best.

so i’ve been consistent with this whole blogging thing in the past few months, so i feel the need to constantly do it.  but right now, i’m exhausted and i have nothing to talk about and feel totally boring, lol…  so i’m gonna go wash this shit out of my hair and go shower.