“Don’t try to get rid of your children’s favorite things before the move – even if it makes it easier. Kids sometimes have a hard time dealing with the change of the move itself.”

when i was a kid, we moved to the bronx with my mothers ex-boyfriend and it only lasted a year. it was dramarama! we “needed to skidaddle out of there, asap” and my mother left aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawl of my toys there in a storage room in the basement. since we weren’t supposed to stay there long, my toys never even left the boxes when we got there. i think that the only toys that i had out were my NES, my pillow people and stuffed animals on display on my bed.

i had EVERYTHING: she-ra, popples, jem, little people, my little pony, lady lovely locks, strawberry shortcake, sweet secrets, keypers, fraggles, rainbow brite, my punky brewster doll, etc.

and then, *poof*, gone.

keep that hint in mind, it’s very true! i held that with me for years. it was horrible traumatizing, and definitely made my moving life even harder. when i was a kid, i moved around 10 times before we settled into a place when i was turning 14. every time i got comfy enough, we were packing up again. i tried to keep all that i could with me, but not much survived.

i think i would have kept a lot of those items, if not for the sentimental purpose, for the collector value. and anything else could have totally been worth money!

grrrrrrrrrrrrr!

i remember being in the car with my mother and she was trying to talk me into getting the surgery and going in bravely, without a screaming episode and what not… and i remember my aunt carol was with us in the car and she too, was trying to calm me down or brace me for what was about to happen. my mother wound up bribing me with buying every piece of every she-ra play sets and dolls/figures if i behaved…
#gocatra #goshe-ra #gocrystalcastle #best

so we get to this hospital and i remember my mother going in with me, walking through an awesome play room that i wanted to stay in, being wheeled around through the halls/rooms, two sets of steel double doors and finally also being on the operating table. my mother couldn’t be with me, and i remember seeing all the tools they were using for the procedure being out. and really fucking shiny and scary.

i also remember fighting and being strapped down for the whole thing while staying awake.

whenever the whole ordeal was finished, my mother told me that i didn’t misbehave at all and she felt horrible because i told her all of the tools were out and she realized how scared i was… she said she heard me screaming through both sets of heavy double doors, and that’s why i ended up getting everything she-ra.

i still have a scar from that splinter/the stitches… brutal.

so we were trying to have an 80′s pop-star themed halloween party but it didn’t quite work out for everyone…  i didn’t get many pictures on my camera because i was too busy dancing it up…  but here are a few…  and i was supposed to be boy george for halloween if it’s not obvious… i couldn’t find a damn hat or over-sized vest to go with my outfit anywhere…  i guess that’s what i get for waiting until the last second for things.  i also wish i had the yarn and the patience to braid yarn into my hair…  meh.

teddy was an amazing looking prince, lol. he def. would have won a contest had we gone out.  marie and katy were hall and oates and my sister was the chick from flashdance.  her ex came up with us, he’s chucky. 

i tried to look serious in every pic.  i always remember boy george being more sad/serious looking than smiling?

i found a shit ton of round wheel negatives like in the first picture, which i have never seen before…  found a cute little owl picture…  and my clunky mofo gameboy.  i can’t bear to throw it out, lol.  i have a gameboy color with the camera somewhere, too.

my romper room and shirt tales plates!
(god, i feel like i’m really dating myself here, lol. #oldfart)

i don’t know wtf i did to my poor my little pony’s mane but it was stiff? lol

living dead dolls anyone? #ohmygoth

my little people airport<3

a rainbow brite gang – tell me that dude isn’t looking just like ron jeremy…

a (new) misfits lunch box…

my wall of gavin (1995-2000ish?)

the picture above the picture is actually hanging in my bathroom as we speak…  i thought it was funny to take this picture because it’s the same exact one that’s in the bottom photo, chillin’ on my moms nightstand.  it never got lost in the shuffle<3 lol

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man, they’re not kidding when they say that scent is the strongest sense tied to memory… just watching this commercial, i can remember EXACTLY what these sweet secrets “make-up” pieces smelled like.  i can also remember my strawberry shortcake scented stuff, but i mainly only conjure up the smells of sweet secrets and especially my maxie doll…  i thought i remembered her having a dress with a white torso and a hot pink skirt, but i do remember this dress and exactly how this one smelled.  i loved it. i can just smelled both just thinking about this stuff. #CRAZY!

this guys booth was full of prints and t-shirts of the nyc subways from the 1980′s – people, stations, platforms, etc. – they’re awesome shots. i would suggest buying a photo print if you can find him – they’re gorgeous! (on flickr i found that he sold at least once at the union sq market – not sure if he’s a repeat vendor, though…) my shirt got mangled within one washing… if he would silkscreen the images on, make the images bigger and on better sized/quality t-shirts, i think he’d make a killing. it saddened me greatly when i removed mine from the wash and it was all pruney.

this was the one that i bought, it was on a dark gray t-shirt…

unless i’m totally blind, i couldn’t find a way to purchase things off of his website or online anywhere. maybe i should send him over an email… anyways, go check out the galleries.

click here to see john’s official gallery. and click here to see a full gallery of shots that i had seen… (not sure why this is on another domain, but whatever – want you to see them all…)

i luh yew, donny miller<3

oh right - thanks to spencer, i have resurrected this game back into my life...

it has been years.

i still need a memory card... on the to do list.

must sift through box of b.s. that recently arrived from mom's casa...

:crosses fingers:

unused i thought this was a cool idea, and that’s my favorite quote from the book.

unfinished/unused this was a website layout idea i was toying around with… or at least an “about me” section… the barbie vanity was scanned out of a collection book from tarina tarantino when she had her barbie line out… (came with some purchases!) there are a bunch of things that i frequently use in graphic design in there too… donny miller pics, neckface, fafi, lucky cats, dp in a locket, a j-heart…

unfinished/unused was just playing around… the words under “death” read: “my mirrors are black for you” (misfits lyrics.) – the frame is from a mark ryden piece (view).

unused i spawned this off of the layout draft from above. how sexy are those big eyeballs<3 – the frame is from a mark ryden piece (view).

myspace this neon sign was above a door, existing next door my friends matts old job down near mott street… i loved it so i snapped a pic of it… i don’t remember where i got the undergoing maintenance bit. i don’t remember coming up with that, lol – perhaps a quotes picture or something… i can’t take credit, i’m unsure…

windows wallpaper/personal contact table this is from the andy warhol directed video for the cars’ video for “hello again” off of the album “heartbeat city”… growing up, this was one of my favorite albums/songs by the cars… and i remember my cousins used to have the heartbeat city vhs video collection on all the time when they babysat me. #raisedwell

unfinished/unused i love this, but i think it was too dark for me/my website. i never finished it

myspace when i had to watch poor shea stadium being taken down piece by piece, i started getting super sentimental and made this… there was a billboard next to citifield that read “going, going, (but) never gone” referring to shea. …my eyes actually filled up with tears. i fucking loved shea stadium<3. #toughtimes

unused this is from the infamous/gross scene from the shining… i toyed around with it and started making it an “about me” section for my website. just never finished it…

unused before i had internet working in midwood when i moved in with frankie, i was super bored and made this. i tried to make something simple, clean and different.

unused just a few of my favorite things<3 at my train stop for work.