“Don’t try to get rid of your children’s favorite things before the move – even if it makes it easier. Kids sometimes have a hard time dealing with the change of the move itself.”

when i was a kid, we moved to the bronx with my mothers ex-boyfriend and it only lasted a year. it was dramarama! we “needed to skidaddle out of there, asap” and my mother left aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawl of my toys there in a storage room in the basement. since we weren’t supposed to stay there long, my toys never even left the boxes when we got there. i think that the only toys that i had out were my NES, my pillow people and stuffed animals on display on my bed.

i had EVERYTHING: she-ra, popples, jem, little people, my little pony, lady lovely locks, strawberry shortcake, sweet secrets, keypers, fraggles, rainbow brite, my punky brewster doll, etc.

and then, *poof*, gone.

keep that hint in mind, it’s very true! i held that with me for years. it was horrible traumatizing, and definitely made my moving life even harder. when i was a kid, i moved around 10 times before we settled into a place when i was turning 14. every time i got comfy enough, we were packing up again. i tried to keep all that i could with me, but not much survived.

i think i would have kept a lot of those items, if not for the sentimental purpose, for the collector value. and anything else could have totally been worth money!

grrrrrrrrrrrrr!

but then i thought to myself, oh yeah. so what if i did just rearrange my toy shelf… i did it my very own apartment (roommate free) that i’ve had for exactly a year.

go go gadget responsible adult life!

mi amigo amit is helping me with project furniture on sunday – thank god i don’t have a lot to this move. the brooklyn move back home to queens was totally stressful…

the only thing i’m worried about is my bed situation… my mom’s buying me the bed for some holiday? (belated birthday or christmas or something…) but i’m not sure what size bed i should get (full or queen) AND i have to buy the mattress myself… i don’t know if i want to splurge on a sleepy’s mattress or get an ikea one again… my ikea one has been around since 2002 and i’ve always slept comfortably… but then there’s the variable of the after christmas sales on mattress’s from sleepy’s… GAH!

i want a queen but i have a full here at my moms, if i get a queen frame i can’t even use this mattress because it’d be too small… hmm. or can i?

i need so much shit for this apt still – a target trip must be in order soon…
…now no one can get christmas gifts because of this move, whoops.
worst.

woe is me.

although i shouldn’t complain about this year too much… i made some great friends/reconnected with others this year though, although brooklyn was short lived it was fun… only thing i hope for the rest of this year is to get into my fucking apartment already and to have a person to kiss on new years…

a little premature to be bringing up new years, whatever. i’ll just get it out of the way now, lol.

…taken from last years wrap up post:
“my goals for 2009?
moving out, having fun, learning more for/through work and filtering out useless people and things.
and getting rid of the red base my hair has had to endure in 2008.”

- got a lot done. haha “useless” people. le sigh.
i did get rid of that red base.

fuck it, i’m going back to black in 2010. it’ll look hot with other sectioned colours/half bangs mixed into it.

so this is the black wall. the purple side hasn’t been finished yet – no sneak peeks!
this has a short wall in the back like 5/6 feet wide and goes a little longer to the right of the picture where you can’t see.

i love it. it doesn’t make my apartment feel smaller either, which is what i was afraid of.
even my landlord liked it

thanks again jes and rob for all of your help! (GO BUY SHIRTS FROM THEM!!!!!! – they are two creatively brilliant minded friends of mine<3)

ALMOST THERE!

i want to go upstate within the next coming weeks. i think we’re going up for thanksgiving, we always do… but i want to go up on a sunday when my cousins and my sister and i can just chill out on our own instead of being obligated to stay with everyone else…

i got the keys for my new apartment yesterday, so that means i can officially start bringing stuff over there… i kind of can’t wait, and i’m kind of going to miss being over here… (this does feel like home<3) i can’t stand the commute, but i do like seeing my mother more, seeing my friends more, especially being closer to erica… again i’m staying out of the way of the burbs, so i feel like i’m isolating myself a bit… but it’s not as far as i was so my friends can’t bitch at me and at least now i won’t have to deal with the long ass commute… ESPECIALLY not being on the 7 line is an amazing thing… i can do what i please, come and go as i please, have people over again, sleepovers!<333

i’ve gotta pick out paint colours! i have one mini-wall, a long wall and a wall near my bed area that i want to be an accent wall that i’m thinking will be a dark purple… stuck on the rest… i need inspiration!

i just want things to look forward to and less stress within the next few months. i don’t like how the last month has gone, even though i’ve been completely preoccupied, i’ve still been stressed out. i want to feel 100% and happy

i’ve gotta pay off one credit card bill, buy a new winter jacket, finish two websites and cut my hair and i’ll be happy.

although i've been complaining and dread my commute every morning, i'm so glad to be here. at this point, i was itching to leave my apartment. i am going to miss it, it was such a nice place, my room/closet were so big (ugh) but i felt so weird being there last month. not even going to get into it, i just can't believe it ended up where it did... can't believe wehe lost touch. whatever. lesson learned, moving along.

all i’ve unpacked (and plan on unpacking) was my clothing. i setup my tv and my computer. that’s it… keeping everything altogether so the next move in a month is easy as pie.

it feels really good to be back here, but strange too. i guess it won’t feel good until i start seeing my friends, i’m sure then i’ll feel back at home… temporarily.

crap, i already miss jen&&&jess sleepovers.
can’t wait til ridgewood sleepovers!

(haha wtf? “time of your life” by green day just came on. really? – how sort of appropriate!)

i kinda feel lost since i’m all packed up. i’m pms’ing and everything has been bothering me… oh the joys of being a woman… i can’t wait until november. new apartment, autumn in FULL effect, glassjaw, thanksgiving (hopefully upstate)… i dunno… hopefully all good things. type, delete. le sigh.

all i wanted to do was come home and watch “the rules of attraction” but the damn dvd is packed away. i should still give a peek, since the bin isn’t closed where all of my movies are… i think i’m going to end up going sleep sooner than i think though.

tuesday i’m moving back to mom’s house…
whatever. i feel so blah about it, but at least i have a home to go back to. and if i get this place, it’ll only be for a month.

i can’t wait until all of this is over.

NEED STABILITY, stat.

adios brooklyn!<3

wow, the reality just set in and the sadness just built up thinking about how good it was sometimes.

another chapter closed, a new one is opening and i’m scared.
things are going well, but i’m scared.

i can’t believe i have to uproot myself again. at least i’m going back to queens. sure, there may be other parts of brooklyn i could be happier in, but it really doesn’t matter… queens is where my family and friends are. and i’m glad i’m going back. not back to the burbs, but close enough to everyone that matters.

if anything, brooklyn heights will someday sway me back. otherwise…

bk isolation – over and out.<3

thanks jen & ilya for making my brooklyn experience so much fun<333

not too crowded tonight.

am i really blogging about doing the laundry? god i suck at life.

there’s always some little kid that seems to become fascinated with me there. tonight it was a little hasidic boy, about 5ish – walking back and forth, and every time he would pass me by he would stare right at my face. hardcore, head/neck following. i was like ??? lol

then some indian lady came in with her three kids and two of them were on scooters… the littlest one was about 3, and she put him down and he just stood there staring at me dead in the face. just stood there… so i smiled, i waved… nothin. just eyes opening a little wider and back to normal.

the mother bought his older brother an ice cream cone and he unwrapped it and threw the entire wrapper on the floor. he just left it there and did three laps around the place on his scooter… the mother hadn’t turned around yet to see it on the floor… and the kid saw me looking at him when he dropped it, and kept looking at me all guilty like. so when he made his last lap, i pointed at it and he finally picked it up and threw it out… little brat, lol.

then some girl came in to talk to her mother that was doing laundry there… she had to be like 15/16 and about 7/8 months pregnant. unreal.

these two older dudes took up like every dryer in the place with sheets/comforters and their clothing. not even kidding, they literally had about 10 in use. it was super odd and kind of annoying.

yeah, that was my fun filled evening.

oh, i also went to the city and went shopping all by myself today.
(haha, what a big girl i am!)

i hate doing things by myself especially shopping… i don’t know why. i got a polo shirt from the old navy kids section that looks like another polo shirt i never purchased from old navy that i’ve always regretted not getting… woo! happy self-birthday present to me! …and i also bought myself a skirt. maybe i’ll wear it tomorrow.

maybe not.
if the temperature is going back up, fuck that. no skirt.

uh. so this weekend i’m having a party at the cribo here… i don’t even know who is actually going to show up. i posted it on myspace and twitter… i imagined actually putting effort into it and it being a party like my 22nd birthday party at the apartment with christina… that was epic. i had people from so many different times/areas in my life there, it was insane. our place was packed to the brim with people.

good times.

what else?
oh yes! i have an apartment appointment on monday!

missy texted me that her friend has a studio available for november 1st, i’m gonna go take a look at it with george in the evening… it’s in ridgewood, back in queens<3

i was telling my mom about it before and she started “you know ridgewood isn’t the greatest neighborhood”, etc. lol. and then thought it was cute if i would live there because she used to live there with my father.

i hope i fall in love with it. so many good distances from everything over there.