(you asked for more pics of us on here ms madden<333 – be glad i didn’t put the dress/jeans picture up LOLLLL)

a) rain sucks
b) humidity sucks
c) mta doesn’t function correctly when it’s raining

so i get outta work on friday, trying to get home as fast as i possibly can so that i can make a weekend bag and feed the cat… i’m out of work at six and don’t get home til seven… the F got stuck and then my bus never came… so i’m walking around sweating in the rain, and my hair turns into the biggest frizz ball i’ve seen yet this icky summer… and it’s up mad sloppy. so i change fast and go go go. i get the Q, that too is running like shite… i am forced watching this weird white dude eat a lemon pie and then wash it down with lemonade, GUHHH! (picture) i get out at 34th street and practically run to penn station… when i get to the time table, it says the port washington line is running on track 20. i have three minutes to catch the train.

i buy the ticket and run downstairs. train is empty. wtf? i sit down anyways and then some old lady starts complaining about a hamptons crowd… what is she talking about? i then notice my track has changed. i didn’t realize this and by the time i get to my track, my train is gone.

erica is so pissed at this point because we were supposed to be on the road by then, but her cousin she was driving up was late too… he at that point was later than me, so woo! i just told her it was out of my hands and i’d get there as soon as possible… got some mcdonalds… finally was on my way to bayside.

got there, got in the car, drove on up – sippin’ on a redbull. erica’s cousin michael started futzing around with my iphone for music, i get made fun of for most of the selection on my iphone anddd he says he doesn’t know 1/4 of it… still, he finds some things to listen to (mostly mainstream 80′s) and i put my head back in the back seat and stare up at the stars. i haven’t seen so many stars in ages. so pretty.

we get to the house and erica is embarrassed about her old bedroom. apparently it hasn’t changed since she was living there in high school.

first thing i find?…

which totally reminds me of “fear” when he carves NICOLE 4EVA in his skin (reference, lol) andddd then i just laugh at her for having that.

the next day was her family bbq/reunion thing. it was nice, lots of good food and company… my childhood friend jen wound up dropping by because she and her husband have a house there… she met erica from working at cascarino’s years ago. small world…

here are some pictures… look at the deer! they were all in her backyard! at one point, there were 3 of them. i only had my iphone to take pictures, so they’re not the greatest… still waiting on erica to send some to me. ha! there is a picture of erica in this batch! she never lets me take pictures of her, but i got one! she’s in the stripes, obviously, lol…

so pretty!

…so we left that same day at 9pm, got back to bayside at like midnight, and i missed my train by like three minutes. worst. so i go upstairs to ask someone for the time since my phone had died and i ran into one of steves friends and then a bunch of our mutual friends on bell… everyone asked me out for drinks but i was so tired and half asleep… just went back to erica’s and laid down til it was time to catch the train. commuted for another stupid hour to get home to my little oscar<3

this morning i woke up and got ready at a slower pace than i wanted to, but felt better about it when i walked up to the Q train platform and the train arrived after about 3 minutes after i climbed up there… i was stuck sitting in front of a day camp group of about 10 on the train. they wouldn’t hold still and kept hitting my knees. their ages ranged from about 4/5-12. obnoxious little fuckers were all wearing neon orange hats to distinguish themselves in a large group outing i guess… aggravating colour to look at first thing in the morning i suppose… they kept trying to fit like 3/4 kids in a 2 person spanned area… wanted to get up but the train was so packed that i couldn’t.

whatever. 34th street rolls up. they’ve been gone, good. i get stuck behind some chick on the staircase/upstairs who feels the need to stroll like we’re on a romantic walk on the beach… bitch, move. you’re in the subway. so finally i get up to herald square… doing my usual bus lane speed walking up to penn… i get downstairs to the ticket machine and this FOOL is taking 9739 years. all the ticket machines are in use, so i stay where i am. he’s stuck straightening out his dollar bills… last one. print. go. — i buy my ticket, get down the stairs to track 17, doors are closing. don’t see train door opening person to give the pleading look to… starbucks it is.

venti iced skim marble mocha and a reduced fat very berry coffee cake. (i’m sure it is, whatevz.) lots of yankee fans everywhere. (ew) — waiting, waiting, waiting. people watching… trying to figure out on the big LIRR map where atlantic ave LIRR stop comes into play, no conclusive info. — train on track 20. skipping murray hill and auburndale (my stop). hoooooorah. to bell blvd i go.

surprise erica, pick up lunch for me and ma dukes… kisses and hugs from aniceto, jorge and julio<3 (casci’s fam!) get a ride from delivery driver… finally get to my mom.

i haven’t posted at all about what’s been going on with my mother lately… she went for a stress/echo test and it came back positive. which means there could have been a blockage in her heart. we found this out last week. yesterday she went for an angioplasty and it came up clean! no blockage! woo! but i still went to take care of her, where they inserted the catheter is all stitched up and sore. she isn’t really supposed to walk that much, so i helped out all day. we watched a lot of TV, which was cool since i don’t watch much TV in general… had fun talks, lots of laughs, just hung out…

all i wanted to do at 9:44PM was begin my journey back home to brooklyn… i’m so tired with all the caffeine coursing through my veins since 10AM, holding two heavy shopping bags full of BS… i’m just minding my business, trying to haul ass to the auburndale LIRR station – as i’m walking from mom’s to the train stop, some tan car holding a bunch of hooligans passes me by and some kid screams out “nice hair, stupid!”. i’m like, yeah okay whatever – it’s dark out. next block, five mins later, another car passes me with two or three kids in it passes by and one screams out “bitch!”… lol… really? wtf is wrong with people?

…mind you my hair is down today with a bobby pin holding a chunk of the front/left with a bobby pin. that’s it. i’m wearing flip flops, shorts and a v-neck today. i look kinda normal, not so stand out-ish… what the hell?

another car passed by and there were whistles being blown… sorta evened out the insults, lol…

zzz. can’t wait to hit the bed.

so this week.  what’d i do?

tonight i went to erica’s.  i always get there by means of the LIRR.  i feel like such a freak on the LIRR.  everyone’s coming home from their hard day at work in their suits, all playing with their mobile devices – calling their wives or husbands, sipping their vodka or beers, getting ready for their ride to their comfy long island homes…  and they all seem to stare at the weird girl with the multi-colour hair and nose ring…  so i usually put the nose ring up inside so it’s not visible…  but i still get all those ??? looks from the old men and women…  or the young guys my age who seem to simply be on a different path in life, whatever.  i don’t know why it even bothers me…  i’m more of a lovely human being than the people with their shit together it seems…

for example…  yesterday on the LIRR…

…this old lady must have been standing for like a good five/ten minutes while my eyes were closed while this idiot guy was in front of me, knowing she was there, didn’t budge.  so i asked her to sit down…  so rude!  she was old enough to be his aunt, mother or grandmother…  you would think guys would just get up for women/ladies in general, call me old fashioned?

anyways!  tonight, i had some yummy dinner and watched a ranger game (we failed).  had many laughs, a late night trip to the drug store – which also ended in laughs…  and now i sit here.  doing nothing important with myself.

last night, we went out to dinner with her sister and uncle…  yes to cinco de mayo’s, but that’s our spot – shut up.  lol…  hung out there for hours…  sippin’ passion fruit sangria – thennnn went home and did nothing important with myself.

(if you know me offline, and we have not gone for this sangria yet – HIT ME UP. best.)

on tuesday night, jes and i went out for dinner and drinks…  caught up, since we haven’t seen each other in MONTHS…  good times with my little pookie!

monday seems to be a blur.  did i even do anything?
no, i guess i was home.  worst.  doing nothing important with myself.

oh wait! at least i did get a hang out invite, FROM A BOY!!!  lol.
but i turned it down, and attempted going to bed early…  and it didn’t happen.  just like now, with midnight approaching…   i still sit here and waste valuable sleeping time…

g’nite!
that 70′s show, here i come<3

today me and erica were talking about me moving in, seriously for once…  she wants her cousin out – it’s our ongoing joke that it’s my bedroom because i was supposed to move into her 3rd bedroom in the house over a year ago and couldn’t because i wasn’t making enough money…  now it may finally become mine and an issue is brought up – she says there’s a no pet rule, anddd she’s allergic anyways.  and i’m definitely taking oscar wherever i go, he’s my kid.  so there goes that idea?  :(  ugh – it’s one damn block off of bell blvd. – SOOOOO convenient!!

i got an apartment offer from someone i know in a newly renovated basement for $875 a month/utilities included for a 1 bedroom in whitestone.  which is cool because i would LOVE to live in whitestone again…  BUT – it’s not near a train.  not even the LIRR…  which leaves me with the same issue as i have now with my LONG ass commute everyday…  but i do love and miss my old ‘hood – i grew up there…  and i kinda think living without roommates might be good for me.  and it’s right by sophie’s, and everyone else i know – so maybe that’d be better for me…  i don’t wanna move somewhere and be alone…  it’s hard enough dealing with being alone and i’m still here.

enough complaining!

so i dyed my bangs, again.  purple/red (see photo above, duh).  i want a darker purple and i kind of hate the red…  i dont normally wear anything red – and it doesn’t match with most colours i wear on a daily, so i’m thinking about hitting up M5 for a quick bleach/dye job tomorrow…  maybe not.  maybe i’ll do it myself.

what else is new?

…i got this super cool tote bag from a company in my office building at work the other day!!

i always see some chick walking around with it and i thought it was the best thing i’d ever seen.  sooooo funny!  so i looked on their website to see if they sold them or something and they didn’t…  but! …i had bumped into one of their employee’s in the hall and asked about it, and i think she said they were for employee’s only or something.  she didn’t speak loudly enough and we parted ways…  SO – i emailed them and told them i worked down the hall and a week later, it was in an envelope with my name on it at the front door of our office.

i feel special having one.
it made my day getting it.  it felt like christmas, lol.

oh the little things that make me happy in life…

and lastly……….

…seriously debating on this iphone purchase/switch this weekend.  i honestly hate typing on the damn thing.  it’s the one thing that’s stopping me.  i’d miss my little cell phone keyboard…  well, i’ll be deciding by tomorrow afternoon i suppose.

either way, i’m not happy with my PT adventures.

except for when you were around, turd.
it’s lonely around these parts

:le sigh:
anyways.

the stupid LIRR didn’t even check my $7 ticket heading back towards queens tonight, so i’m gonna use that shit a different day. in fact, i think i should ride the LIRR everyday and see if they don’t check tickets often! maybe the people paying $100+ a month are stupid! shit was packed, ticket people couldn’t walk through if they wanted to… that’s like the fifth time in the past six months that’s happened to me…

so i get to great neck and i have to wait almost 45 minutes for the train on the other side going to bayside… it was so cold. again, i HATE the LIRR. lol.

SO. i got my glasses
i hate them. and i hate this picture… i look like a disaster, i apologize. however, i figured whoever reads this bullshit should see a picture of them…

gack.
goodnight.