i don’t know how the hell i used to dye all of my hair black… this shit was damn tedious and i only did the left side of my head… i have way too much hair… i had to part that in two and do it piece by piece… i dyed half of my bangs purple again. i always forget i get tired of the teal colour very quickly…

so tired.
itchy/burning head.
…off to shower.

so i met up with jes last night with the intentions on rolling through to my friends party at some bar in the city – we got there, it just didn’t work out for us. (at least i got to meet my little kay for a second<3) had to leave after a while, whatever… at least i got to see jes (for like, a whole hour or so) and i got to know my trains over here a little better… i’m always looking for the fastest route to the city – think i found a good one… the M train to the L train was pretty quick.

so yeah, came home… couldn’t sleep. heat dried me out, couldn’t breathe… so i called in sick today. i have to invest in some melatonin because this whole taking some nyquil to pass out sometimes, doesn’t work out in my favor. i felt like a pile of hot shit this morning, and i was pretty sick at the beginning of the week… when i’m run-down, it really hits me hard.

i watched a little trashy tv (maury/jerry) and then a movie (the wristcutters, again – although i will remind myself not to, again.) and napped. did the judge judy thang and went to little neck (yep, long island) to go to my old bosses new restaurant – erica’s working over there… i haven’t seen her in almost two weeks and i have been meaning to go over there anyways… haven’t seen my former boss in over a year…

hung out with a few former co-workers and erica’s sister for a while, then she drove me home.
it was good to see her… i get such withdrawal when i don’t.

my hair got complimented thrice today, one old lady told me it looked like a peacock and that i should keep doing it while i’m still young – told me to ride it out, lol.

…looking forward to work in the morning, going to go get a good nights sleep

i have nothing productive to even say this week, i’ve been under so much stress lately… i feel like all i do is whine about my horrible, sad (love) life and i don’t want to do that here… this year is coming to a close soon, thank god… i can’t wait to start a new one… 2009 has been nothing but stress. asshole/stupid boys, ditched some bitches and shitty people, family contributions have been ruining me… gotta get that shitty little dark cloud out of my life MAN.

although i shouldn’t complain about this year too much… i made some great friends/reconnected with others this year though, although brooklyn was short lived it was fun… only thing i hope for the rest of this year is to get into my fucking apartment already and to have a person to kiss on new years…

a little premature to be bringing up new years, whatever. i’ll just get it out of the way now, lol.

…taken from last years wrap up post:
“my goals for 2009?
moving out, having fun, learning more for/through work and filtering out useless people and things.
and getting rid of the red base my hair has had to endure in 2008.”

- got a lot done. haha “useless” people. le sigh.
i did get rid of that red base.

fuck it, i’m going back to black in 2010. it’ll look hot with other sectioned colours/half bangs mixed into it.

…actually happened tonight, oddly enough.

i dyed my bangs this milk chocolate brown colour i constantly try to describe to missy and we can never actually place… but i think it came out this colour because i dyed it over the horrible orange my hair was rocking the past week…

i’ve had a cold since sunday
today i felt better because i had a good nights sleep, but i developed a horrible cough that i guess was just clearing everything out… sounded gross but felt good.

i would be sleeping already if the damn rangers weren’t playing in another time zone, lol… i want to get a good nights sleep so i feel good tomorrow when i see renate! how fun?! now i just have to meet dr.ew and my web-to-real-life will be complete<3 lol

i miss sophie
she’s been in greece for the last two weeks, and i’ve needed her attention, support and hugs and she’s not here… worst. and while i was living in damn bayside too, dammit… i think she returns on friday. i’m going to have to steal her! i need help and guidance! things have been confusing and rough lately…

okay, need sleepy.

…brooklyn heights that is. i decided to finally troop my ass over to ricky’s to get some hair bleach/hair dye tonight… i can never decide what colour i want to dye my bangs… i thought to dye them gray. jen was all into it, but i don’t know how long i’d be into it. although i could see myself tipping it purple and i think that’d look hot. either way, these are the dyes i ended up with… and what i ended up falling in love with. i NEED, NEED, NEED to live there!

(more…)

i miss sophie. i haven’t seen her in like a week or some shit. wtf.

i want to move into frankie’s apartment already. (so excited.)

i want to dye half of my hair a darker shade of brown than what it is all over.

i need to do crunches and get this gut off.

i want a tan.

(debating on a few fake and bake sessions.  what? just a few…  been there, done that – shut up.)

“god only knows” by the beach boys, has been stuck in my head ALL DAY.<3

worked on virus’s at work all day.

watched it snow today. (please, no mas.)

going to sleep early, again.

more interesting posts soon, i promise.  lol.<333

so here’s the purple hair that i worked so hard to get on friday… stupid bleaching… dying… blah.

i’m blogging in the middle of  a ranger game, what a dumb idea.  i’m very distracted and have nothing to say because of it.  haha, so unfocused.

oh i’ll update later…

yes, yesssssssssssssss – come to me dubey…<3

i went with frankie to get it, his cousin (bert krak) does tattoo’s for a spot near my house – and @ smith street tattoo a couple of days a week…  i love it, i’ve been meaning to get a 4 leaf clover since my sister did a few years ago – and going to that dropkick show a few weeks ago, got me fiending too – there were celtic tattoos and shamrock tattoo’s EVERYWHERE.  (drool!)

apparently, it was bert’s 3rd shamrock tattoo in three consecutive days.  so hopefully it’s super lucky! (third time’s a charm he said)

not too exciting, went to work…  i haven’t gone out for st. patty’s and celebrated in over 2 years…  but maybe that’s a good thing.  people looked like morons stumbling all throughout penn station at 6:30 pm…

…although i tweeted about it already, i’ll blabber on here about how earlier in the afternoon, i saw jason schwartzman in the health food market thing by my job… (the overpriced organic store) – and i honestly just thought he was someone i knew, so i gave him exactly that look.. and 2 seconds later it hit me… who he was and that he must have thought i was going to maul him in hopes of some sort of contact – he had that “i’ve been spotted” face on, and shuffled into an aisle to hide – boo that. apparently he lives in dumbo…  but i’ve never seen him around…  i’ve only seen jermaine dupri, denis leary, a gossip girl and spike lee… (that rude DICK.)

tonight i went home to erica, we had dinner and watched a nutso ranger game. (yes, we won.)
i’ll spare you all the nail biting details. go look up the highlights if you care…  it was INSANE!

i’m sitting here dying my bangs, bored…  looking forward to tomorrow’s weather…  i keep saying i should have taken off tomorrow but i didn’t even go out tonight, i’m lame.  would have been a wasted day off… bell blvd. looked annoyingly packed and rowdy, so maybe it was for the best.

so i’ve been consistent with this whole blogging thing in the past few months, so i feel the need to constantly do it.  but right now, i’m exhausted and i have nothing to talk about and feel totally boring, lol…  so i’m gonna go wash this shit out of my hair and go shower.

i just got back from erica’s a little while ago, decided i need to clean my room…  i caught a second wind from falling asleep in her bed for a while before…  i seriously need to start throwing more shit out and start packing up.

today me and erica were talking about me moving in, seriously for once…  she wants her cousin out – it’s our ongoing joke that it’s my bedroom because i was supposed to move into her 3rd bedroom in the house over a year ago and couldn’t because i wasn’t making enough money…  now it may finally become mine and an issue is brought up – she says there’s a no pet rule, anddd she’s allergic anyways.  and i’m definitely taking oscar wherever i go, he’s my kid.  so there goes that idea?  :(  ugh – it’s one damn block off of bell blvd. – SOOOOO convenient!!

i got an apartment offer from someone i know in a newly renovated basement for $875 a month/utilities included for a 1 bedroom in whitestone.  which is cool because i would LOVE to live in whitestone again…  BUT – it’s not near a train.  not even the LIRR…  which leaves me with the same issue as i have now with my LONG ass commute everyday…  but i do love and miss my old ‘hood – i grew up there…  and i kinda think living without roommates might be good for me.  and it’s right by sophie’s, and everyone else i know – so maybe that’d be better for me…  i don’t wanna move somewhere and be alone…  it’s hard enough dealing with being alone and i’m still here.

enough complaining!

so i dyed my bangs, again.  purple/red (see photo above, duh).  i want a darker purple and i kind of hate the red…  i dont normally wear anything red – and it doesn’t match with most colours i wear on a daily, so i’m thinking about hitting up M5 for a quick bleach/dye job tomorrow…  maybe not.  maybe i’ll do it myself.

what else is new?

…i got this super cool tote bag from a company in my office building at work the other day!!

i always see some chick walking around with it and i thought it was the best thing i’d ever seen.  sooooo funny!  so i looked on their website to see if they sold them or something and they didn’t…  but! …i had bumped into one of their employee’s in the hall and asked about it, and i think she said they were for employee’s only or something.  she didn’t speak loudly enough and we parted ways…  SO – i emailed them and told them i worked down the hall and a week later, it was in an envelope with my name on it at the front door of our office.

i feel special having one.
it made my day getting it.  it felt like christmas, lol.

oh the little things that make me happy in life…

and lastly……….

…seriously debating on this iphone purchase/switch this weekend.  i honestly hate typing on the damn thing.  it’s the one thing that’s stopping me.  i’d miss my little cell phone keyboard…  well, i’ll be deciding by tomorrow afternoon i suppose.

i wore my hair to the right today.

i took the adventure alone today, marilyn was MIA.

i always gasp for breath when i walk up my york st. station in the morning.  it’s 2 flights of stairs, a long/steep uphill ramp, and then 2 more flights of stairs.

the starbucks people always know what i want before i order it.

had a salad and a slice for lunch.
salad ingested at 1ish, pizza at 4ish.

got my wonderful co-worker about to have her baby any day now a gift card, had everyone sign it…  gave it to her and made her blush<333

avoided the bald dude who asked me out via xmas card successfully, again.

(more…)

so i ended up dying my hair…  i feel like i haven’t had my hair this dark in ages but HELLO jess it was only last dec/jan i had jet black hair – duh.

here’s what it is.
“warm chocolate brown” and “penny copper” (which totally needs another application because it currently looks orange-ish – not so much in real life though…)

i guess i like it… usually takes a few days for me to be like FUCK YEAH!
whatever. hair schmare.

tomorrow == AHHHHHHHEADAUTOMATICAAAAAHHHH!
happiness – i’ve been waiting like two years for this again…
(well for a full set anyways, i did get a mini-show @ blender last feb. including that SICK NEW SONG I HOPE THEY PLAY TOMORROW.  it’s CONSTANTLY in my head and playing on my ipod.)

SO. FUCKING. PSYCHED.
i get to see that sexy italian fucker prance around stage tomorrow<3 :le sigh:

zzzzzzz….  moving along…   so apparently NY1 is doing a little “piece” tomorrow on one of my co-workers for a non-profit she works on…  IN OUR OFFICE!  so maybe you’ll see me on NY1 in the background soon…  maybe not.  i wasn’t planning on dressing appropriately tomorrow like she had asked us to, lol.

well had she provided pat kiernan, i totally would have.
:le sigh again: DREAMY!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha truth be told, i used to run a pat kiernan fanlisting years ago on my old domain from like ‘99-’04.  there were online like, 11 members that whole time.  :(  whatever. i repped with PAT LOVE for some years via fanlisting.

ps – i’ve been NY1′less for like, 4 years now.  how sad.
i watched NY1 every morning since i was like 12 or 13 or something like that.  now every morning, i check NY1.com for my weather.  so i still have a little piece of NY1.

wow, i’m blabbering about stupid shit.

good night.

…2008…

the only thing i really dislike about this year was part of the summer and my birthday.
and that which followed from my actions on my birthday. (sorry homie, i love you.)
oct/nov were kind of hard but i bounced back in decemeber.

best?
my new job $$$, my new tattoos, making new friends, going to mexico with m5, all the shows i went to,
me and m5 hanging out all the time, dunkin donuts was built on my corner (lol), intoxicated nights, the last of the mets games at shea, holiday cocktail lounge… tons of other stuff<3

my goals for 2009?
moving out, having fun, learning more for/through work and filtering out useless people and things.
and getting rid of the red base my hair has had to endure in 2008.

i was too lazy to wait to bleach my hair and did the aqua/deep lavender one last time before i take another fun plunge…

…so to put a damper on fun time – the cats that we take care of outside are MESSED UP.  there are two kittens with blown out eyes out there.  one had a really bad eye and it seemed like it was getting better, his spirits were way up and he was just having fun being a kitten…  but his eye didn’t get better and i don’t think the vet gave us the right meds for what was wrong.  maybe we didn’t describe it correctly?  i don’t know.  but bottom line is, the cats are gonna be fixed up or put to sleep and the surgery is EXPENSIVE!!!  my vet wants $800 per cat. can you believe that shit?  for innocent, feral cats…  the humaine society says that they’ll only charge $400 so i guess that’s our only option.

i don’t know where we’re going to get that money – but the cats are perfectly fine other than this and are sweet as pie.

if you would like to help, please please please donate via paypal to stujessica@aol.com and it will go towards the surgery.  we currently have $350 towards it, please help out these innocent little puddy cats

so sad!

<3

so i reverted back to my old em dee em aye ways on friday night… me and sophs were bored, and a friend had some for us. stayed in the dark basement just watching tv… it was a nice little dose of leaving reality for a little while. maybe one of the last times that i ever touch it, it’s been four years + anyways, so don’t judge! i’ve been very very good…. so it left me all achy and scraped up, muscles hurting, etc.

then last night my sister and i went upstate to hang out with my cousin marie… we were going for our bridesmaids dresses today. it was so weird seeing marie in a bridal gown, but she looked adorable and beautiful. and it made me feel like i’m so on the wrong track in life… but then i thought about how upstate life is different than here, and i feel a little better about it. i seem to live a fast paced life down here in nyc… and it just doesn’t feel in the cards for me right now anyways. i just always thought we’d have kids at the same time, etc. and here i am unsure of everything i’m doing at age 27…

whatever! i looked fabulous in the dress, lol! except for the fact that i’ve got these tattoos that are kinda gaudy with a gown on

boo me

lol

so i was actually in beacon and glamour kills was closed today boo! – they’ve got paper up in a new building closer to my aunts house… so i guess they’re moving to a bigger spot now that they’re “moving on up” in the world :\

blah.

okay i’ve been in a car all day today, from connecticut to saugherties back to nyc… i need to relax.

i’m thinking of changing the front of my hair to pink or purple this week. and trying my hardest not to revert back to black, getting it out S-U-C-K-S!!! although it would look HOT HOT HOT with light pink hair. GAHHHHH. i want some blends and black. AHHHHHH! i dunno, we’ll see.