these will always remind me of my mother<3
i was raised on these full albums. on repeat.
(hover over the thumbnail for the title if you’d like to know what an album is.)

i’m going upstate this weekend, completely forgot!

woo!

i REALLY really need to go upstate soon.

my friend pat said he could search for people at work, so i asked him if he could find my brother recently… and so he found him for me yesterday. it’s been a long time since i had spoken to my fathers side of the family… i haven’t spoken to any of them since 2002 or 2003 i believe. long story short:

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okay so i’ve had this t-shirt desire in my brain since last winter when i saw a certain sexy front man wearing this shirt on stage in BK one night. (loveddd it – want it – gotta represent, chaaa know?)

butttttttt i am four things. well, five if you count american… but that’s not flavourful at all…

so i’ve been on a mission googling to try to find a shirt with all four of my nationalities on it. i found ONE shirt that came so close – all that was missing was italy… i did in fact find two shirts with both of my parents backgrounds on them though, may have to settle for them and switch ‘em up…

…so here’s what i found!

• the first shirt is missing italy & it has ugly fonts!
• the second shirt – cute! want!
• okay! …my mom is german and irish… that works… but again with the ugly font…
• the fourth – LOVE the colour combo, vintage look and the font/the warp of the text.
• the fifth – exactly what i was looking for. anddd i found all of my flags but poland on cafepress in the same style… just the flag with a thin outline like i wanted…

friday night == commute from hell!

a) rain sucks
b) humidity sucks
c) mta doesn’t function correctly when it’s raining

so i get outta work on friday, trying to get home as fast as i possibly can so that i can make a weekend bag and feed the cat… i’m out of work at six and don’t get home til seven… the F got stuck and then my bus never came… so i’m walking around sweating in the rain, and my hair turns into the biggest frizz ball i’ve seen yet this icky summer… and it’s up mad sloppy. so i change fast and go go go. i get the Q, that too is running like shite… i am forced watching this weird white dude eat a lemon pie and then wash it down with lemonade, GUHHH! (picture) i get out at 34th street and practically run to penn station… when i get to the time table, it says the port washington line is running on track 20. i have three minutes to catch the train.

i buy the ticket and run downstairs. train is empty. wtf? i sit down anyways and then some old lady starts complaining about a hamptons crowd… what is she talking about? i then notice my track has changed. i didn’t realize this and by the time i get to my track, my train is gone.

erica is so pissed at this point because we were supposed to be on the road by then, but her cousin she was driving up was late too… he at that point was later than me, so woo! i just told her it was out of my hands and i’d get there as soon as possible… got some mcdonalds… finally was on my way to bayside.

got there, got in the car, drove on up – sippin’ on a redbull. erica’s cousin michael started futzing around with my iphone for music, i get made fun of for most of the selection on my iphone anddd he says he doesn’t know 1/4 of it… still, he finds some things to listen to (mostly mainstream 80’s) and i put my head back in the back seat and stare up at the stars. i haven’t seen so many stars in ages. so pretty.

we get to the house and erica is embarrassed about her old bedroom. apparently it hasn’t changed since she was living there in high school.

first thing i find?…
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this weekend had its ups and downs. friday was fun, went for drinks afterwork with willie dictionary, then went to dinner with christine and erica…  christine is 4 1/2 months pregnant, CUTIE! and for some reason i haven’t seen her since february, so it was good to catch up with her…  we went to cinco de mayo (shocker) and then just went back to erica’s apartment to chill out – we were just shooting the shit and i was making her and erica laugh so hard they were crying… fun times

saturday morning, my sister and mother got into a huge fight – apparently “because of me” needing a ride to go pick up my jacket from the post office…  (below, sexy. fuck yes. and yeah it’s part/fleece. and it’s not heavy and gross for this time of year at all.)

long story short – sarah had a dr’s appt and was heading out like 20/30 mins from when i woke up so i figured i had time if my mom drove me up to get it, but my sister wasn’t having it…  so i went downstairs and asked my mom if she’d take me fast and she told me to ask my sister…  so i did…

sarah got pissed off that we were asking her for the car because my mom knew “she needed the car all week”, and then my mom got pissed because she was answering me snotty. so she tried to defend me…  don’t know why, but it all escalated between the two of them because they both have bad tempers. they were screaming at each other, and my sister was dropping F-bombs left and right… so my mom told my sister to pack her shit and move out, that she couldn’t take her attitude anymore, and my sister ended up cursing AT her… i just tried to calm the both of them down and make them stop…  i told my mother to stop answering her, and she did…  and then i went upstairs to try to calm sarah down with reasoning and talking and she stopped finally…

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i went to a birthday party yesterday for erica’s cousin… it was fun, her family is great – i like them a lot.  they remind me of my family a bit – when we actually used to get together – not much of that anymore as we get older :(  i miss our big family get togethers so much.

we all just joked around all day, bullshitted about life, tattoos, family, looked at pictures, put down some cervezas, and i was eating all day and wasn’t getting full. shit, i hope i don’t have a tapeworm! AHHHHHHH!!!! lol.

then we went home late and watched the nip/tuck episode we both missed on tuesday.  and an episode of family guy…  and then i went out to the bar.  met up with HIM and his friend, got drunk, slept over again like nothing ever happened.  woke up, had some french toast and was extremely disappointed over the ranger game, and now i’ve landed here again.  at this little purple desk.

at least things are normal between us and i don’t feel like i like him anymore.  i just honestly enjoy being in his arms, having someone to make out with, cuddling…  but i love just being his friend.

why can’t i just take things about various boys that i like/date and mold a super boy? UGH.

i really want to get motivated to do something with myself until later…  me, my mom, my sister and her boyfriend are  going to see friday the 13th…  and tomorrow i have my annual physical – YAY!  i haven’t been to my general doctor in like four years because i haven’t had medical insurance until now…

i want some dunkin donuts, but my shower is calling my name.
dunkin donuts first, don’t wanna go out with a wet head…