so without getting too into detail about my experiences with twilight (the movie series), let me just recap for you VERY quickly about how and why this came about (again, in case you missed it the first time.)

heard about the book > went to buy it and saw it in the teen drama section (uhhhh okay no) > twilight movie comes out (HELLA FRANCHISED like omgz …no.) > be cool – ignore! – whatevz, who cares > two years later and one month ago – erica has the first one on via in demand > watched it, loved it > went home, ordered the second one on ppv > waited until the last second to go see eclipse, then it was only playing in one theater in queens (near my house) – now, this was tonight…

the theater was empty when we got there – just the two of us, so i was going to take a picture of lonely erica all alone in the empty theater… i started climbing over the seat in front of me and stopped for some reason – just kinda sat there for a second and when i looked up, a huge black dude walked in and saw me straddling it. it was like deer in headlights type of shit… i looked up at him, and for some reason i blurted out “ummmm… i can’t even come up with a good explanation for this” at/to him. he cocked his eyebrow and let out a sexual grunt. i just sat down and we were hysterical laughing.

so i haven’t seen my love erica in ages… her new job takes up all of her time and i’m super lazy on weekdays so i haven’t been trekking over to bayside lately… but today i took a sick day to re-coop from my recent mental/emotional breakdown and headed over to her at a reasonably early/late afternoon hour.

after an agonizing hour long bus ride, i finally made it to main street for the LIRR to bayside… we chilled out in the air conditioning for a while and then made our way over to jackson heights to natives to sooth her craving for some yummy empanadas and beers… we stuffed ourselves silly with meat, rice and platanos and then we got some coffee and went home to watch a movie.

she put on twilight.

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soooooo wednesday night was that ranger game in 3D! (vs. the islanders) – we won 5-0 – YAYYYYYYYYYYY shut out for lundqvist<3

(that’s erica and i<3)

so yeah, apparently this was the first time a hockey game was ever aired in 3D – and we did it right from MSG theater just downstairs from the actual game… we had so much fun… i got seats three rows from the stage/screen right in the center. not bad at all. we met up with my home girl lauren (finally!)… she said it looked better from a little further back… it was groovy either way. i would invest in a 3D tv for sure – i’ve had my big, clunky tv for ages now – if there would be a time to move forward it would def. be for that and saving space, lol…

nothing beats going to a real game, but i’m glad i got to be part of ranger history WOO!

so i met up with jes last night with the intentions on rolling through to my friends party at some bar in the city – we got there, it just didn’t work out for us. (at least i got to meet my little kay for a second<3) had to leave after a while, whatever… at least i got to see jes (for like, a whole hour or so) and i got to know my trains over here a little better… i’m always looking for the fastest route to the city – think i found a good one… the M train to the L train was pretty quick.

so yeah, came home… couldn’t sleep. heat dried me out, couldn’t breathe… so i called in sick today. i have to invest in some melatonin because this whole taking some nyquil to pass out sometimes, doesn’t work out in my favor. i felt like a pile of hot shit this morning, and i was pretty sick at the beginning of the week… when i’m run-down, it really hits me hard.

i watched a little trashy tv (maury/jerry) and then a movie (the wristcutters, again – although i will remind myself not to, again.) and napped. did the judge judy thang and went to little neck (yep, long island) to go to my old bosses new restaurant – erica’s working over there… i haven’t seen her in almost two weeks and i have been meaning to go over there anyways… haven’t seen my former boss in over a year…

hung out with a few former co-workers and erica’s sister for a while, then she drove me home.
it was good to see her… i get such withdrawal when i don’t.

my hair got complimented thrice today, one old lady told me it looked like a peacock and that i should keep doing it while i’m still young – told me to ride it out, lol.

…looking forward to work in the morning, going to go get a good nights sleep

i started making a list of things that happened this decade that were super crazy important/life changing.

my computer died, so i can’t share it with you’s.

although, would you really care? lol
this site is so me, me, me!

so instead, i’ll quickly just share this.

going into the year 2000: my boyfriend randolph was working at MTV, i was upstate in mountainview (apt complex my cousins/i grew up in) wondering about the bullshit Y2K scare.

going into the year 2009: jimmy was blowing up my phone, steve and i were newly broken up and i was at home, trying to stay sane.

hope tonight is a little different.
spending it with erica, hopefully not thinking too much about everything bad that has happened in the last month.

okay so my xmas vacation/weekend started on wednesday night…

my barista from work told me he was going to be on bell for a live performance at one of my regular bars, asked me if i knew where it was (lol) – i was very excited to have my brooklyn buddies down there (him and his gf who also works at my starbucks)! so i went over to erica’s and we met up with them at the bar…

erica left after a while because she wasn’t feeling well, and then my friend pat lee rolled through. we all hung out, enjoyed the cover band for a while… i was getting harassed by a youngin’, we entertained this for a while and then we all left.

my family and i didn’t really do anything for xmas. we were all pretty broke, so i promised my mom i’m going to take her to see mary poppins on broadway next month, and for my sister – i’ve got a few gems up my sleeve. but this month all had to go to apt. stuff… i mean, i know it’s not all about gifts, but we all look forward to it as well… my sister bought me the wicked witch of the west collectors barbie that i had wanted, russian nesting doll measuring cups for my new apt, and a slimer (from ghostbusters) coin bank (BEST!)

pat lee came over on xmas eve to help me out with my poor, charlie-busted computer… he installed windows 7 for me – it’s lovely so far! (thanks dude!) – so now i can update my poor, neglected blog again…

i slept for most of the day both days which has totally screwed up my sleep schedule now, worst.

last night a bunch of me and my sisters friends went out for my sisters birthday which was postponed because of the snow storm last weekend… the usual bar we go to where we can avoid all the annoying ugg-wearing/ditzy dancing bitches was filled with just that – and a DJ… worst. i guess they were looking to draw in a new crowd to pack the place – so annoying. but towards the end of the night it filtered out… ran into a few friends – one including a twitter-induced spotting (lol!) and let loose a little.

so i went over to erica’s tonight to watch the rangers vs. islanders game, and there was this tiny asian girl running around the house. this was quite perplexing, seeing as that there are three colombian people living in the house, but it turned out to be erica’s cousin ben’s friend’s kid.

first thing she does is look at me and goes “WHO ARE YOU?”. i’m like ??? WHO ARE YOU??? lol. and so i sit down to eat and she starts walking underneath the eat in kitchen bar thing and starts tickling my feet and then my back. i’m like dude, who are you? HOW OLD ARE YOU? lol… i needed details.

she was four, and her name was faith.

she told me that my pasta was gross and she kept tickling my sides and then started scratching my back and then ran away into bens room… a few minutes later she comes back and asks me “why is your hair orange?”. she said her daddy didn’t like it, and that i’m the “crazy” girl… so i called erica’s cousin ben out to the kitchen to explain how little children work. if they hear something, the repeat it. he kinda laughed and tried to explain why he said it.

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i had a lovely weekend

spent a lot of time with erica – actually a lot of the last week was spent with her. i want to get in as much time as i can while i’m still living over here… we had dinner together, hung out at the house because the weather was shit… got drunk. then i wobbled over to the knights to see my love jennifer<333 we drank, had some laughs, went across to the diner and had a romantic late night snack<3 and then we went home... (after waiting an hour for our cabs - worst!)

saturday i slept in and then george asked me if i wanted to go out with him to some bar and it wound up being his brothers birthday. soooo i met his brother (and his fiancé) for the first time at a german restaurant/bar in long island city. it was a lot of fun, they were both super nice we watched the ranger game (it was the first game against scott gomez<3 ugh. anddd the rangers lost, meh.) and then we left after a while... cuddlefest! best!<3 </CORNBALL>

george dropped me off this afternoon and erica and i picked right back up where we left off, chowing down @ cinco de mayo (shocker) drunk&sober by 7PM. we watched the yankee/angels game and then we went shopping and here i sit typing this. when i should have hair dye on my head.

will do that now.

stillllllll can’t find my purple haze dye feck.

it’s 1AM… i wanted to be in bed sleeping already but of course i got caught up in some other stuff tonight.

went to erica’s, watched the game. the rangers lost (boo).

went to get food @ casci’s… ran into so many people<3
went to the bar to see my dad (KK!), watched the yankees lose (yay).
got loose, went home.

i just wanted to see my fafi tonight, and i couldn’t.
it’s so frustrating when you just want to see someone and you can’t.
i just want to spoon him all night. (lol)

i kinda want to throw a fit, lol.

i want to stay home tomorrow.
i want to veg out, watch tv, sleep in, do nothing.
(damn work getting in the way)

i don’t even know what i’m doing this weekend. i can’t remember if i made any plans or not.

i just want to move into my new place and get settled. living out of two bags and the shit in my dresser is making me nutso.

i’m going to bed.

my cop friend steve happened to be working at metrotech today (a few blocks from my job in BK), so we got some coffee and he waited around to bring me back to the q-borough… i went to erica’s with the intention of waxing brows and drinking coffee… instead, we laughed our asses off in the kitchen for a half hour and missed our chance of hair removal.

erica and i went, but the shop was closed. instead, we got dinner and booze and went back to her place. we watched the yankee game for whatever reason and her sister french-braided my hair for me. it looks radddd. just got home, about to sleep and stop this fucking factory of thoughts…

in brighter news…
i don’t know how many of you have ever read my “before i die” page… but one of the bands on my “list of bands to see before i die” is faith no more. and what have we here? an S2-dream-come-true.
FUCKKKKK YESSSSSSSS!

erica got into an argument with our mutual friend (that i’ve known since 1988 mind you) last night, and the girl blurted out that she doesn’t “understand that friendship” (referring to erica’s and mine) because we’re so different.

i don’t get why that’s a bad thing, in fact… we’ve introduced many new things to each other since we started being friends. opposites attract as well as people with things in common. i’m all over the place in life and can relate to many different people.

so random, so odd.

soooooooooo this is what i did:

friday: movie night with my lovie<3 a mi casa…

saturday: went to the jersey shore (long branch) for my cousin kim’s wedding… it took place on the beach at a resort… it was kind of surreal, when i looked around at the hotel behind me and the boarwalk area, it screamed CANCUN! until i looked towards the beach and saw dirty jersey water… lol. bleh. it turned out to be a lot of fun, but super tiring since we were dancing in sand all night…

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friday night == commute from hell!

a) rain sucks
b) humidity sucks
c) mta doesn’t function correctly when it’s raining

so i get outta work on friday, trying to get home as fast as i possibly can so that i can make a weekend bag and feed the cat… i’m out of work at six and don’t get home til seven… the F got stuck and then my bus never came… so i’m walking around sweating in the rain, and my hair turns into the biggest frizz ball i’ve seen yet this icky summer… and it’s up mad sloppy. so i change fast and go go go. i get the Q, that too is running like shite… i am forced watching this weird white dude eat a lemon pie and then wash it down with lemonade, GUHHH! (picture) i get out at 34th street and practically run to penn station… when i get to the time table, it says the port washington line is running on track 20. i have three minutes to catch the train.

i buy the ticket and run downstairs. train is empty. wtf? i sit down anyways and then some old lady starts complaining about a hamptons crowd… what is she talking about? i then notice my track has changed. i didn’t realize this and by the time i get to my track, my train is gone.

erica is so pissed at this point because we were supposed to be on the road by then, but her cousin she was driving up was late too… he at that point was later than me, so woo! i just told her it was out of my hands and i’d get there as soon as possible… got some mcdonalds… finally was on my way to bayside.

got there, got in the car, drove on up – sippin’ on a redbull. erica’s cousin michael started futzing around with my iphone for music, i get made fun of for most of the selection on my iphone anddd he says he doesn’t know 1/4 of it… still, he finds some things to listen to (mostly mainstream 80′s) and i put my head back in the back seat and stare up at the stars. i haven’t seen so many stars in ages. so pretty.

we get to the house and erica is embarrassed about her old bedroom. apparently it hasn’t changed since she was living there in high school.

first thing i find?…
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…i had kind of a strange and tiring day…

this morning i woke up and got ready at a slower pace than i wanted to, but felt better about it when i walked up to the Q train platform and the train arrived after about 3 minutes after i climbed up there… i was stuck sitting in front of a day camp group of about 10 on the train. they wouldn’t hold still and kept hitting my knees. their ages ranged from about 4/5-12. obnoxious little fuckers were all wearing neon orange hats to distinguish themselves in a large group outing i guess… aggravating colour to look at first thing in the morning i suppose… they kept trying to fit like 3/4 kids in a 2 person spanned area… wanted to get up but the train was so packed that i couldn’t.

whatever. 34th street rolls up. they’ve been gone, good. i get stuck behind some chick on the staircase/upstairs who feels the need to stroll like we’re on a romantic walk on the beach… bitch, move. you’re in the subway. so finally i get up to herald square… doing my usual bus lane speed walking up to penn… i get downstairs to the ticket machine and this FOOL is taking 9739 years. all the ticket machines are in use, so i stay where i am. he’s stuck straightening out his dollar bills… last one. print. go. — i buy my ticket, get down the stairs to track 17, doors are closing. don’t see train door opening person to give the pleading look to… starbucks it is.

venti iced skim marble mocha and a reduced fat very berry coffee cake. (i’m sure it is, whatevz.) lots of yankee fans everywhere. (ew) — waiting, waiting, waiting. people watching… trying to figure out on the big LIRR map where atlantic ave LIRR stop comes into play, no conclusive info. — train on track 20. skipping murray hill and auburndale (my stop). hoooooorah. to bell blvd i go.

surprise erica, pick up lunch for me and ma dukes… kisses and hugs from aniceto, jorge and julio<3 (casci’s fam!) get a ride from delivery driver… finally get to my mom.

i haven’t posted at all about what’s been going on with my mother lately… she went for a stress/echo test and it came back positive. which means there could have been a blockage in her heart. we found this out last week. yesterday she went for an angioplasty and it came up clean! no blockage! woo! but i still went to take care of her, where they inserted the catheter is all stitched up and sore. she isn’t really supposed to walk that much, so i helped out all day. we watched a lot of TV, which was cool since i don’t watch much TV in general… had fun talks, lots of laughs, just hung out…

all i wanted to do at 9:44PM was begin my journey back home to brooklyn… i’m so tired with all the caffeine coursing through my veins since 10AM, holding two heavy shopping bags full of BS… i’m just minding my business, trying to haul ass to the auburndale LIRR station – as i’m walking from mom’s to the train stop, some tan car holding a bunch of hooligans passes me by and some kid screams out “nice hair, stupid!”. i’m like, yeah okay whatever – it’s dark out. next block, five mins later, another car passes me with two or three kids in it passes by and one screams out “bitch!”… lol… really? wtf is wrong with people?

…mind you my hair is down today with a bobby pin holding a chunk of the front/left with a bobby pin. that’s it. i’m wearing flip flops, shorts and a v-neck today. i look kinda normal, not so stand out-ish… what the hell?

another car passed by and there were whistles being blown… sorta evened out the insults, lol…

zzz. can’t wait to hit the bed.

friday night consisted offffffff:
my darling jennifer, frankie and a few of his friends, and ilya hangin’ out at our apartment… made some super tasty red wine sangria with the lovely taylor mmm… cut a flap off of the tip of one my friggin’ fingers, eep. got inebriated and cuddled with my lovies…

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had an okay weekend…  was a little stressed out because i couldn’t get my internet up and running on friday as planned…  hung out with my little lovie jen and that was nice :)  we went shopping, i got a sparkly outfit for joanna’s birthday party on saturday…  we got some coffee, came back to my apartment…  just chilled out, watched the N, cuddled, lol…  it was nice.

saturday i took the longest journey home to queens to see erica and my mom, got some food and coffee and drove into brooklyn with steve…  we went to see my co-worker shawn for his birthday in williamsburg and had a few drinks with him before joanna’s thing…  ran into my old roomie christina again for the second time in a week…  it’s just weird because i haven’t seen her in months, and now twice in a week at the most random places…

then we went to trash bar to meet up with joanna… and that bar sucks.  and the crowd made it so shitty.  stupid brooklyn hipsters…  there was no room to stand, walk, sit, drink, dance, move, breathe.  i was getting totally claustrophobic and wanted to leave.  we stayed for a while and left because one of our friends wasn’t allowed in the bar because he was too drunk.  like i said, that bar sucks.  no biggie.

charlie and rob came over today to hang and fix my computer.  charlie had to update my windows and drivers, etc. and get this stupid wi-fi thing going so i could finally use the internet…  insanity not having it for two weeks.  so many things rely on my being on the internet, it’s ridiculous… music, freelancing, weather, email, etc. – it really sucked.  so i have wi-fi connected to some shit connection that keeps going in and out because it won’t pick up frankies router signal, no idea why.  so at some point within the week, i’ve gotta figure that out…

anyways, we did that and then had some yummy japanese food down the street from my house and then they left…  my friend louis came over today – maybe i posted about him – met him in a bar, he likes face to face – texts me lyrics randomly?  ahhhh anyways, he brought over this wonderful dvd and it kept us highly entertained for a while.  i’ve always loved NOFX so much, but it’s so great watching them tour the world.  it made me realize how much i shouldn’t take for granted seeing bands in the US…  especially often – i mean they played all these random countries and had such good turn outs at most of them.  and it’s crazy how many kids show up and ADORE THEM and NEVER get to see them.  like it was their first time playing some countries, the kids must really treasure that.  if i only got to see my favorite band ONCE in life, i don’t know what i would do…  i see the souls on average 2/3 times a year…  i need it.  it’s my sanity.

okay, i’m half asleep and posting so i’m going to lay down.
work in the morning.

:goodnight:

okay it’s 3 AM, why am i still awake?  not only that, i’m awake in my bedroom at mom’s house.
i have nothing to do here.
all that’s in my room here is some laundry, a shelf with candy/2 lunchboxes and a candle, and my bed.

thank god i found the USB cord for my iphone or else i wouldn’t have aim, or a phone.  my shit was fully charged when i left brooklyn and apparently i wore it out…  it was on its last leg here when i got home from being out all day.

i’m on a laptop.
WORST.

i feel like i can’t type correctly on laptops and i feel like it just HAS to be adding to my wrists that are already going to be cursed with carpel tunnel syndrome in the future…  wa wa wa worst!

so yeah, still don’t have internet at home.  frankie says i need a wireless card in my computer.  bleh.  i don’t even know when i’m getting one.  i really just want to get it so that i can freelance and make some damn extra money…  blah.

so my first week at the apartment has gone pretty well.  still don’t know more than four people that live in brooklyn, so that’s kinda getting to me…  i feel bad that i always look to frankie for brooklyn guidance, or depending on him for social sanity.  it would be a lot easier if i had the internet to keep me preoccupied…  anyways i’ve gotten used to the commute already, just need to get more acquainted with my hood.  i know where some stores are and one train stop away there’s food and stores…  i need to find a bar we can regularly frequent so that we can make some friends…  poor oscar is still not settled with the dog…  he keeps hitting him though…  and the dog doesn’t bite at him or anything…  he’s only barked at him, hopefully it’s just the whole getting used to each other thing…

hmm.  so yeah…  the beginning of the week my friend jen who dates my friend from bayside came over to my house…  she kinda lives near me – kept me company during the day…  and then i went to go see the kills with rox.  we had a romantic asian dinner (lol) and then drinks and music.  my sexy little date…  friday laura came over and we got drunk with frankie :)  watched tv, bugged out…

today erica and i went to see her “friend” (boyfriend) box for the NYPD – they fought against the suffolk county PD
it was interesting…  something different to do.
pauly from rocky was there and the father from “family bonds” (retired HBO series) was there too.

now i’m in queens.
lonely.
in a boring room.

tomorrow for mother’s day we’re going to the mets game and just hanging out i guess…  going to see the bouncing souls at night.  (woo!)  i haven’t seen them since my bday, hopefully this set – they won’t let me down.  last time they suckkkkkkkkkked. (acoustic nonsense)

so rad.

i’m gonna try to lay down for sleepy time.

i know, it’s been boring around here…  i live a boring life people…
i promise to spark it up soon – i have a lot going on in may
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
okay so saturday, now that i’m not heated over the FUCKING asshole anymore…

aside from getting into a screaming match with steve, and then bitching him out…  i ran into a lot of my friends, got HIGHLY inebriated, and also made an ass of myself.  for the most part, had a good time.

my friend john came out.  which was cool and strange. (we sorta used to hang out/date? in 2005)  …i had not seen him in ages…  he’s best friends with two kids that used to work at casci’s with me (one was with him, one of his friends i know was there too), that’s how we met…  and we had a good time.  turns out he’s got an anchor tattoo on his arm that reads “worship” & “tribute” in the scrolls.  HOW COOL/WEIRD? lol.  (okay, if you don’t know i have an anchor tattoo on my left arm and “worship/tribute” on my chest).  he says he told me about it but i honestly couldn’t remember and was amazed.  laura kept saying we were fated to be together… lol.  and yes, obv. he’s a huge glassjaw fan as well.

i saw one of andrews old friends and one of jeffs old friends – together.  weird, i hadn’t seen them in years either.  i can’t say that i remember most of our conversation other than mike telling me he was breeding his pitbull and joe loved that i could still spell his intricate italian last name in my phone, lol…  they were with my ex jeff’s ex marilyn who i take the bus/train with into work.  oh our little queens towns…

and the usual suspects were there…
and erica was out for a bit…

erica and i had gone out for dinner/sangria at like 6 and that’s when the madness started.  i didn’t get home until almost 4:45 AM.  you can only imagine the state that i was in.  i don’t remember a lot of the end of the night…  laura left to see her ex at some point that was working down the block at the tanning salon, my friends are lushes that stayed there, steve left after we fought, asshole left and i wound up making fun of him and what his ex was wearing (not knowing it was his ex – lace stockings and jean shorts? she’s not even fierce enough for that – pfft.) and stumbled home.

may 1st is just ’round the corner!!! – so i got a lot of shit packed, my walls are looking mighty bare, and it’s so weird.  i hate it.  it’s freaking me out.  i won’t live here anymore…  ever again.  not with mommy either.  not that it’s cut the cord type shit around here, most of the time we can just live together without pissing each other off, and i just love her.  i kinda find it funny/ironic that the apartment we lived in together when it was just me and her when i was a weee little stu (1-4 yrs old),  before sarah was born is directly around the corner from this apartment i’m typing from right now…  and now i’m leaving her from here…

predestined paths.

(i believe in life magic, lol)

there are little white dots all over the walls from where i had stuff taped up, my monster collage walls…  still nowhere near as bad as my old house, but enough…

…i’m gonna miss my little mid-urb neighborhood…  i realized that last night when i was getting home from work.  i had to leave early because of ridiculously horrible cramps, and wound up being back here while it was still light out.  and quite warm.  – i love spring time so much.  and it looks so pretty around here – all the big/little houses with such character (especially the tudors! – fave!) – flowers and trees…  not buildings and hustle/bustle…  well not too much of it anyways, especially on my side streets…

in fact walking home during spring/summer and fall nights from bell is one of my favorite things in the world.  once the warm weather hits, i live for it.  good exercise and it clears the head…  so this weekend, i gotta fit it in before i won’t be around all the time.  especially to sleep here…  although i’m sure i’ll be here for many drunken nights that i’ll end up crashing on the couch…  haha i’m acting like i’m gonna be in another state or country…  but brooklyn – especially where i’m going to be – is kinda far.  especially when you don’t drive.  and now i REALLY don’t have the need to, lol.  and i think it’s gonna be a way different crowd than around here.

BLAH BLAH BLAH.
i’ve got a closet the size of  a small bedroom and a red haired italian boy to get tattoo’d with often!

so…  in other news.  the rangers won tonight (snoozefest, i know – but it’s the playoffs! – GO LUNDQVIST! GO DUBEY!<333) anddd i finally got my rosary ring that i had ordered… one size too big – so it’s on my middle finger instead of my ring finger…
(note to self: SIZE 5 ring finger.)

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this weekend had its ups and downs. friday was fun, went for drinks afterwork with willie dictionary, then went to dinner with christine and erica…  christine is 4 1/2 months pregnant, CUTIE! and for some reason i haven’t seen her since february, so it was good to catch up with her…  we went to cinco de mayo (shocker) and then just went back to erica’s apartment to chill out – we were just shooting the shit and i was making her and erica laugh so hard they were crying… fun times

saturday morning, my sister and mother got into a huge fight – apparently “because of me” needing a ride to go pick up my jacket from the post office…  (below, sexy. fuck yes. and yeah it’s part/fleece. and it’s not heavy and gross for this time of year at all.)

long story short – sarah had a dr’s appt and was heading out like 20/30 mins from when i woke up so i figured i had time if my mom drove me up to get it, but my sister wasn’t having it…  so i went downstairs and asked my mom if she’d take me fast and she told me to ask my sister…  so i did…

sarah got pissed off that we were asking her for the car because my mom knew “she needed the car all week”, and then my mom got pissed because she was answering me snotty. so she tried to defend me…  don’t know why, but it all escalated between the two of them because they both have bad tempers. they were screaming at each other, and my sister was dropping F-bombs left and right… so my mom told my sister to pack her shit and move out, that she couldn’t take her attitude anymore, and my sister ended up cursing AT her… i just tried to calm the both of them down and make them stop…  i told my mother to stop answering her, and she did…  and then i went upstairs to try to calm sarah down with reasoning and talking and she stopped finally…

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iiiiiiiiii can’t believe tomorrow is friday already, my week has flown by!  and thank god, because i’m exhausted.  can’t wait to attempt this whole “sleeping in” thing, again.

so this week.  what’d i do?

tonight i went to erica’s.  i always get there by means of the LIRR.  i feel like such a freak on the LIRR.  everyone’s coming home from their hard day at work in their suits, all playing with their mobile devices – calling their wives or husbands, sipping their vodka or beers, getting ready for their ride to their comfy long island homes…  and they all seem to stare at the weird girl with the multi-colour hair and nose ring…  so i usually put the nose ring up inside so it’s not visible…  but i still get all those ??? looks from the old men and women…  or the young guys my age who seem to simply be on a different path in life, whatever.  i don’t know why it even bothers me…  i’m more of a lovely human being than the people with their shit together it seems…

for example…  yesterday on the LIRR…

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not too exciting, went to work…  i haven’t gone out for st. patty’s and celebrated in over 2 years…  but maybe that’s a good thing.  people looked like morons stumbling all throughout penn station at 6:30 pm…

…although i tweeted about it already, i’ll blabber on here about how earlier in the afternoon, i saw jason schwartzman in the health food market thing by my job… (the overpriced organic store) – and i honestly just thought he was someone i knew, so i gave him exactly that look.. and 2 seconds later it hit me… who he was and that he must have thought i was going to maul him in hopes of some sort of contact – he had that “i’ve been spotted” face on, and shuffled into an aisle to hide – boo that. apparently he lives in dumbo…  but i’ve never seen him around…  i’ve only seen jermaine dupri, denis leary, a gossip girl and spike lee… (that rude DICK.)

tonight i went home to erica, we had dinner and watched a nutso ranger game. (yes, we won.)
i’ll spare you all the nail biting details. go look up the highlights if you care…  it was INSANE!

i’m sitting here dying my bangs, bored…  looking forward to tomorrow’s weather…  i keep saying i should have taken off tomorrow but i didn’t even go out tonight, i’m lame.  would have been a wasted day off… bell blvd. looked annoyingly packed and rowdy, so maybe it was for the best.

so i’ve been consistent with this whole blogging thing in the past few months, so i feel the need to constantly do it.  but right now, i’m exhausted and i have nothing to talk about and feel totally boring, lol…  so i’m gonna go wash this shit out of my hair and go shower.

well, DUHHHH!  i forgot that everyone gives a flying fudge about what i do on the weekends, and i forgot to share what i did this past one…

friday: erica’s!
saturday: cascarino’s w/erica and then we went to the mall – i finally got an iphone, i got this wonderful piece of sexy bag that is known as my new snakeskin betseyville bag (it needs more purple on it betsey, boo you!) – i got the newest DKNY perfume, yum! and some ridiculously large, awesome, neon pink, $11 bag from target… haha, my bags were on different price spectrum’s that day…

sunday: krays/casualties free show @ club europa in brooklyn…  sweaty, friend filled, free, lots of beer, HOURS of music, cute punk rock boys, my shiny pants (lol), i finally broke out the op-ivy shirt i drew…  more beer.  phil’s moustache, tim got arrested, BILLY TAINT!, jimmy chune?, jorge with emo hair, jake with a mullet, ridic! pictures i won’t be able to get from joanna because i’m “not on facebook” wahhhhh, bite me – that website sucks, lol.

andddddd that was my exciting weekend.

i just got back from erica’s a little while ago, decided i need to clean my room…  i caught a second wind from falling asleep in her bed for a while before…  i seriously need to start throwing more shit out and start packing up.

today me and erica were talking about me moving in, seriously for once…  she wants her cousin out – it’s our ongoing joke that it’s my bedroom because i was supposed to move into her 3rd bedroom in the house over a year ago and couldn’t because i wasn’t making enough money…  now it may finally become mine and an issue is brought up – she says there’s a no pet rule, anddd she’s allergic anyways.  and i’m definitely taking oscar wherever i go, he’s my kid.  so there goes that idea?  :(  ugh – it’s one damn block off of bell blvd. – SOOOOO convenient!!

i got an apartment offer from someone i know in a newly renovated basement for $875 a month/utilities included for a 1 bedroom in whitestone.  which is cool because i would LOVE to live in whitestone again…  BUT – it’s not near a train.  not even the LIRR…  which leaves me with the same issue as i have now with my LONG ass commute everyday…  but i do love and miss my old ‘hood – i grew up there…  and i kinda think living without roommates might be good for me.  and it’s right by sophie’s, and everyone else i know – so maybe that’d be better for me…  i don’t wanna move somewhere and be alone…  it’s hard enough dealing with being alone and i’m still here.

enough complaining!

so i dyed my bangs, again.  purple/red (see photo above, duh).  i want a darker purple and i kind of hate the red…  i dont normally wear anything red – and it doesn’t match with most colours i wear on a daily, so i’m thinking about hitting up M5 for a quick bleach/dye job tomorrow…  maybe not.  maybe i’ll do it myself.

what else is new?

…i got this super cool tote bag from a company in my office building at work the other day!!

i always see some chick walking around with it and i thought it was the best thing i’d ever seen.  sooooo funny!  so i looked on their website to see if they sold them or something and they didn’t…  but! …i had bumped into one of their employee’s in the hall and asked about it, and i think she said they were for employee’s only or something.  she didn’t speak loudly enough and we parted ways…  SO – i emailed them and told them i worked down the hall and a week later, it was in an envelope with my name on it at the front door of our office.

i feel special having one.
it made my day getting it.  it felt like christmas, lol.

oh the little things that make me happy in life…

and lastly……….

…seriously debating on this iphone purchase/switch this weekend.  i honestly hate typing on the damn thing.  it’s the one thing that’s stopping me.  i’d miss my little cell phone keyboard…  well, i’ll be deciding by tomorrow afternoon i suppose.

…here i thought with all of my nonsense stress i dwell on, that i wouldn’t have a good spring/summer.  because so much has changed since last year, i thought everything would be falling apart…  but!  i have a lot lined up with a lot of different people, and  i’m digging it.

and i realize that whoever is still around through all of this break-up bullshit (including steve), and makes an effort – really makes me happy.  it really isn’t that hard to pick up a phone and text or call.  and i have regular people reminding me of that.  so i’m going to start filtering people out again, like i did a few months ago.

feckkk you!

back to the goods – shows, mini-trips (iowa?, aruba!, pocono’s), moving out, tattoo’s, coney? (are the boardwalk places still open?), upstate sunday funday’s, mets games, warm nights where i’m not rushing home, other good peoples.

i’m such a hermit in the winter.  i can’t wait to break free.
40′s on my “stoop”, iced coffees in hand without getting frost bite, NO JACKETS, walks home from cascarino’s, TANNING!!, random park tours with sophie  …so excited.

holiday cocktail lounge on friday was fast and furious, since we needed to be somewhere else later on…  we get there so early and get sloshed by like 8PM – it’s the worst.  so we decided since sophie had her work key, we’d go to her office to nap…

…little did we realize the elevator was locked as well as the staircase doors to get onto the floors…  worst.  so we hung out in the staircase for a few and then decided to move ourselves to a local bar for a $10 pitcher of bud light before the events of the evening started…

decided i wasn’t going to bother with the male species at all, until some suit that worked for AMEX wound up chatting with us…  someone put suicide machines on the jukebox at the bar and all three of us were like ???  whoa!  and YES! and he was impressed i knew who they were – me and soph were like, this is our scene…

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aren’t these lovely? i bought them both this weekend.
along with a new bikini, a new bag, a new jacket, a shit load of new iron-on letters, two more necklaces (almost forgot about the tigerrrr).

i am scared to even think about what getting to work tomorrow is going to be like in this snow…  i’m going to have to wake up like a half an hour earlier than normal to attempt getting there on time…

SO the weekend…

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i went to a birthday party yesterday for erica’s cousin… it was fun, her family is great – i like them a lot.  they remind me of my family a bit – when we actually used to get together – not much of that anymore as we get older :(  i miss our big family get togethers so much.

we all just joked around all day, bullshitted about life, tattoos, family, looked at pictures, put down some cervezas, and i was eating all day and wasn’t getting full. shit, i hope i don’t have a tapeworm! AHHHHHHH!!!! lol.

then we went home late and watched the nip/tuck episode we both missed on tuesday.  and an episode of family guy…  and then i went out to the bar.  met up with HIM and his friend, got drunk, slept over again like nothing ever happened.  woke up, had some french toast and was extremely disappointed over the ranger game, and now i’ve landed here again.  at this little purple desk.

at least things are normal between us and i don’t feel like i like him anymore.  i just honestly enjoy being in his arms, having someone to make out with, cuddling…  but i love just being his friend.

why can’t i just take things about various boys that i like/date and mold a super boy? UGH.

i really want to get motivated to do something with myself until later…  me, my mom, my sister and her boyfriend are  going to see friday the 13th…  and tomorrow i have my annual physical – YAY!  i haven’t been to my general doctor in like four years because i haven’t had medical insurance until now…

i want some dunkin donuts, but my shower is calling my name.
dunkin donuts first, don’t wanna go out with a wet head…

wow the superbowl is boring! zzzzzzzz.

i was falling asleep on erica’s couch, so i came home instead of putting myself through that anymore…  gonna hit the shower and the pillow.  i had a long ass day…

i like to go to cascarino’s on the weekends to chill out with erica and the gang…  i went to barnes and noble today, bought my favorite little mexican aniceto a english/spanish translation book and then was on my way over to the restaurant…   i brought UNO, had good eats/good company…  lots of caffiene and then booze @ winnie’s…  then i wound up working?  tattoo’s exposed and all, lol.   it was kinda weird, but kinda fun at the same time.

i just want to rest.  and damn the weekend for going too fast.  i’m in need of a lazy day, dammit.

i’m gonna see you up close and personal!
(although i don’t really care because you’re not cute like scott gomez, but whatever)

tonight i’m going to my first ranger game with erica