an r&b and hip-hop head, an alternative/grunge and punk lover, a beavis & butthead (and daria) addict, a tommy hil and nautica consumer, a huge advocate of handball and public nyc parks, a rocker of a black bugaboo columbia jacket, a drinker of the finest st. ides special brew and liquors around all by 14, a super nintendo gamer nerd, a misfits addict, a graphic designer, a web designer, a super-sneaker-out-of-the-houser, a great kisser, a roamer of queens in general, a bay terrace mallrat, a thief kleptomaniac, a greenwich village dweller, a make-out slut, a smoker of pot, an adopted latina, a stoop dweller, a total hard ass, a pin cushion (i’ve had like, 11 piercings), a mosher, a friend of vampires, an MTV offices regular, a raver, a lover of anything with synth in it, a mild drug user (e), a cam girl, a blogger, a saucony’s/vans girl, an awesome girlfriend to few, a frequent MTA rider, a south-bronx dweller, a ska-loving skanker, a chick magnet, a  bouncing souls show regular, a high school graduate, a video store clerk/manager, a jackass addict, an ikea addict, a tony hawk pro skater pro, an aimless whitestone stroller, a myspace fan, a graffiti lover, a sparks drinker, a roommate, a loner, a restaurant manager, a toughlover<3, a pet owner, a traveler, a glassjaw addict, a camper, a wifey, a guest list dweller, a mistress, a canvas for a few tattoo artists, a full-time website developer, someone with multi-colour hair, a brooklyn resident, a ranger fan (again<3), a tweeter, and most importantly a (self-destructively/overly loyal) good friend… etc.

which leaves me feeling like i love how all over the place i’ve been, good and bad.
i’ve also been realizing as i get older that NYC is really fucking tiny. and the older i get, the closer the social circles are linked.
(this has been proven many times in the last year…)

miss bee is in nyc for the week! we greenpoint’d it up tonight – had some drinks and pizza’s – lots of laughs and ridiculousness! – oooooooooh! this weekends gonna be funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

(check out the knockers on these bitches :jealous: lol)

TRD: Two Tree’s 25 Washington rentals in Dumbo to open March 2011. $2k for studios 4800 for 2 bed.

the prices are insane down here, this isn’t the damn city… i have been working here for two years now and i’ve realized that if you’re stupid enough to pay that much money to live here – you deserve to. you’re basically paying for a SHIT TON of noise, dog pee and dog shit EVERYWHERE (literally), (SLOW WALKING) tourists ALL YEAR LONG, no decent grocery store, overpriced EVERYTHING, 978 nanny’s and the kids they don’t give a shit about slowly dragging their asses down the streets of dumbo and did i mention the tons of tourists?

i like working down here because it’s not as busy as the city but i would NEVER EVER EVER waste money living in this stupid, overrated area.

i was thinking of trying to make it a nyc thing, but i caught myself thinking too big – i guess starting off in queens/maybe bk is a better idea… anyways, i was thinking out details and it could get a little crazy so i’ve gotta sort them out. i want to have teams with uniforms/names (well i mean i was thinking uniformed groups like in the warriors, not like baseball uniforms?) and play til there’s one big game for a prize or something… gotta have incentive to light a fire under people asses i suppose…

i’m going to build a website with voting polls for different things and a contact form to start gathering information for games in the fall… if i can’t get enough info, maybe it’ll be for the spring…

you in?

i never posted the pictures from that day, and i just found them so, enjoy the strange skies of midwood, brooklyn.

(all i did in photoshop was re-size them. this was honestly exactly what it looked like outside…)

(click the thumbnails, people!)

i work between the manhattan and brooklyn bridges, if you didn’t know… it’s gorgeous down there in the park, so i figured it’d be a good place to just chill out for a while… it was a gorgeous spring day out today, glad we got to enjoy it before we start sweating our nyc balls off…

we got some starbucks, walked around dumbo for a few, and then we went to brooklyn bridge park… chilled out for a while, were talking… TLNYC CREATIVE BRAINSTORMING… and as jes took this picture on the left (dont mind my fat arm? lol), one of my bosses walked over to say hi, lol… we got to see his son charlie and his wife, we chatted for a few and then they went to a birthday party in the park. it’s funny i bumped into him, i’m usually never in dumbo on the weekends since i frequent it so often during the week

so we sat there for a while shooting-the-shit, and then decided to hike up to the heights… here are some pics i took

(click the thumbnails, people!)

since when did it become cool to look like you cut your hair yourself and fucked it up? derby hats? glasses without lenses, those fucking keffiyeh scarves, neon coloured everything, tights ripped up, UGH… FULL BEARDS – YOU LOOK LIKE THE WOLFMAN (lolz)

coughgobacktoyourhomestatecough

as if it isn’t annoying enough looking at that shit, tonight i saw a few girls actually wearing flats! …and one girl wearing a pair of flimsy american eagle moccasins… IT’S FUCKING 27 DEGREES OUTSIDE AND YOU’RE RIDING THE MTA… it’s not like these people are going to be sitting in a nice warm car and going door to door… the trains don’t have heat!!!

lol, why do i let these things bother me?

…my closing thought:
solid white pantyhose DO NOT LOOK CUTE ON ANYTHING BUT 2-6 YEAR OLD GIRLS.

one of my “him”‘s was there… (referring to one of two ASSHOLES i “dated/hooked up with” last year – a friend of his…)

i kinda felt bad after we disappeared for like, almost ten minutes, but oh well…. you decided not to date me, and you haven’t been a friend… (i didn’t do anything on purpose, i didn’t know he was even going to be there – but w/e – i went to make moves mannnnnn, so i made ‘em.)… he left me hanging back then, and obviously never gave a shit, so what am i supposed to do?

sophie and i got rather tipsy, had fun, came home.

here i sit with beef ramen<3 (BEST) and i’m about to fall asleep.

…good times.

i can’t wait til jen and i can hang out for more than a couple of hours. my move back to queens has really thrown off our schedule of love, lol. it was nice having her stay with me at least once a week… we have a ton of fun. and she’s one of the only people that’ll watch degrassi with me

aww i miss her already

i’m doing well today, finally.
i haven’t felt this stress-free in a month. i don’t know why, not much has changed…
i guess just doing that thing where i ignore things, so they can’t hurt me is helping…
i’ve put them in the back of my little head, so i don’t have to face them.
it’s just easier this way.

“the time it takes, the time it takes to let go.”
- thursday.

tuesday i’m moving back to mom’s house…
whatever. i feel so blah about it, but at least i have a home to go back to. and if i get this place, it’ll only be for a month.

i can’t wait until all of this is over.

NEED STABILITY, stat.

adios brooklyn!<3

wow, the reality just set in and the sadness just built up thinking about how good it was sometimes.

another chapter closed, a new one is opening and i’m scared.
things are going well, but i’m scared.