out with the faint, in with the deftones.
there will be no more new posts here, strictly archives.
i can’t believe that i’ve had this domain for 7 years. #rip
last week at work (rip), i was working on a crime scene cleanup website that also serviced “hoarders” houses for cleanup. digging around a bit more, i found some affiliate website that serviced cleaning of hoarders homes… this was a “helpful hint” on that website:
“Don’t try to get rid of your children’s favorite things before the move – even if it makes it easier. Kids sometimes have a hard time dealing with the change of the move itself.”
when i was a kid, we moved to the bronx with my mothers ex-boyfriend and it only lasted a year. it was dramarama! we “needed to skidaddle out of there, asap” and my mother left aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawl of my toys there in a storage room in the basement. since we weren’t supposed to stay there long, my toys never even left the boxes when we got there. i think that the only toys that i had out were my NES, my pillow people and stuffed animals on display on my bed.
i had EVERYTHING: she-ra, popples, jem, little people, my little pony, lady lovely locks, strawberry shortcake, sweet secrets, keypers, fraggles, rainbow brite, my punky brewster doll, etc.
and then, *poof*, gone.
keep that hint in mind, it’s very true! i held that with me for years. it was horrible traumatizing, and definitely made my moving life even harder. when i was a kid, i moved around 10 times before we settled into a place when i was turning 14. every time i got comfy enough, we were packing up again. i tried to keep all that i could with me, but not much survived.
i think i would have kept a lot of those items, if not for the sentimental purpose, for the collector value. and anything else could have totally been worth money!
grrrrrrrrrrrrr!
i’m wearing UFO’s right now… khaki ones… (view) i couldn’t find my navy blue UFO shorts… so i strung these up like i used to, ankle strings around the thighs. i also pinned the pants in the middle from front to back to try to make them less wide… it looks ridiculous. i am too old to be wearing these things, lol.
i’m breaking out some type of cargo something or others… but i can’t do these.
ex-girlfriend is getting angry because she’s wearing black UFO’s and wants a UFO partner in crime…
sorry caryn, not happening… lol.
jes and i put together a tutorial for the m.i.s.s. blog a few weeks ago on how to make yourselves dollar bill rings #oldskool! – i hope you enjoy it and girls, if you make one – send me a pic! leave a comment here<3
among the wonderful things i got this year, these are my two favorite things.<3 my sister bought me seasons 1-4 of tales from the crypt and jes bought me the empress of the underworld by frank kozik and kidrobot. go figure, i get two brutal/evil things for christmas and they’re my favorites, lol…
:in the year two thousaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand:
(if you don’t know what that’s from, you officially suck.)
but yeah, this pic was from the year 2000… how is that a decade ago? #raverdays
since my coming of age around 12/13 i absorbed and turned into:
an r&b and hip-hop head, an alternative/grunge and punk lover, a beavis & butthead (and daria) addict, a tommy hil and nautica consumer, a huge advocate of handball and public nyc parks, a rocker of a black bugaboo columbia jacket, a drinker of the finest st. ides special brew and liquors around all by 14, a super nintendo gamer nerd, a misfits addict, a graphic designer, a web designer, a super-sneaker-out-of-the-houser, a great kisser, a roamer of queens in general, a bay terrace mallrat, a thief kleptomaniac, a greenwich village dweller, a make-out slut, a smoker of pot, an adopted latina, a stoop dweller, a total hard ass, a pin cushion (i’ve had like, 11 piercings), a mosher, a friend of vampires, an MTV offices regular, a raver, a lover of anything with synth in it, a mild drug user (e), a cam girl, a blogger, a saucony’s/vans girl, an awesome girlfriend to few, a frequent MTA rider, a south-bronx dweller, a ska-loving skanker, a chick magnet, a bouncing souls show regular, a high school graduate, a video store clerk/manager, a jackass addict, an ikea addict, a tony hawk pro skater pro, an aimless whitestone stroller, a myspace fan, a graffiti lover, a sparks drinker, a roommate, a loner, a restaurant manager, a toughlover<3, a pet owner, a traveler, a glassjaw addict, a camper, a wifey, a guest list dweller, a mistress, a canvas for a few tattoo artists, a full-time website developer, someone with multi-colour hair, a brooklyn resident, a ranger fan (again<3), a tweeter, and most importantly a (self-destructively/overly loyal) good friend… etc.
which leaves me feeling like i love how all over the place i’ve been, good and bad.
i’ve also been realizing as i get older that NYC is really fucking tiny. and the older i get, the closer the social circles are linked.
(this has been proven many times in the last year…)
yesterday was my sister’s birthday and we went out for dinner/boozing in bayside. so as she was picking me up from ridgewood and we were driving back to bayside via the long island expressway… i caught a glimpse of lefrak city’s newest lighting ensemble… #fail
since i was a little kid (and i’m sure before i was), every year next to the LIE, lefrak city has put up huge seasons greetings/happy holidays signs and brought up long strands of lights from the bottom of their sign to the top floor of between the buildings to make the shape of a triangle for christmas trees (i guess/assume?) and this year they put up this LED nonsense. a RED “snowflake” (looks more like a starburst?) in the middle and a bunch of straight line lights as tall as the snowflake on both sides of it. and it’s only on the awning of the building…
i flickr searched and googled the shit out of lefrak city/xmas lights and i couldn’t find any great pictures of what they used to display, just this one:
at any rate, it’s a queens/nyc tradition that’s been broken… kinda sucky lefrak!
so i was passing by with my mom today and we got to even more talking about lefrak city. since my mother grew up in forest hills, i assumed she’d had friends that lived there or something over the years… turns out i was right.
alrighty! now that it’s officially december… i’m putting x-mas website wallpapers into the random background rotation here, and going to try to get into the spirit.
i haven’t enjoyed christmas in a long time… not because of anything jess-dramatic or bad associations with anything like the rest of my wretched life… christmas eve a few years ago was when my first aunt that died was really sick with lung cancer, emphysema and a lung infection. it was also around the same time that my other aunt had to get triple-bypass surgery… traumatic stuff, man.
when i was a kid, my aunt necie (the bypass surgery aunt) always hosted christmas eve… she had the biggest tree and a big house and everyone used to come over. she is my mothers sister, one of 7 sisters and 1 brother, so you can only imagine how packed the house was with each of them there and having at least two children there with them…
anyways, the year that aunt necie had the surgery she stopped hosting christmas eve. and it was really hard for my mother, my sister and i because that’s what we did ever since i was born. now we just feel kind of lost. and it’s sad that we all still don’t gather over there, but she just doesn’t want us to. and even though aunt carol didn’t die on christmas eve or day that year, i think we all associate that with this time of year.
on friday, jes and i are going to pick up a small christmas tree for my apartment. i wasn’t moved in last year in time for one, i wasn’t actually living/sleeping here until new years day… so it’ll be my first holiday here.
she bought me my first ornament for my tree, and friday we’ll be picking up a few more. i want to put together a fun christmas play list for us to get snookered to while we eat soft baked cookies, decorate my tree and hang lights. i have been searching everywhere on the internet for that madness “our house” and jingle bells mix from the new verizon commercial – it sounds awesome! and it got me all pumped for christmas…
i’ll have to put a play list together tomorrow because on thursday… rangers vs. the islanders. and i will be there. 
since the new myspace doesn’t even allow contact tables anymore, it was (even more so) pointless to have rads2.org up anymore. (my old myspace layout/contact tables website) although facebook kind of took over a while ago, it was still up just in case… now it’s just official, and this saddens me because i worked really hard for a long time on all them jammies. and a lot of cool people i’ve met online came out of making all of them… including jes.
…another hobby bites the dust.
tonight i went home to whitestone with soph to wax my manly ‘brows and for some coffee, and it’s so weird walking around over there for me… i grew up on those streets, romping around with sophie… hanging out with my ex’s, going to school, living, coming into my own, working… it’s just so strange that so much of my life has been based there and now i feel like a stranger there. even in sophie’s house, where i’ve been a staple since 1993… i realized i hadn’t been there in months.
when we got to my moms house, we parked around the corner and walked over there and i was like DAMN i feel like my everyday life is so far away right now.
ridgewood, my apartment, dumbo, oscar, jes, etc.
another lifetime away, sort of.
i swear i’m not under the influence of anything, lol.
sophie recently dug out this picture that i made for us back in the day and showed it to me tonight… for some reason we made our nicknames or whatever, dookie and spooky. (we were both obsessed with green day back then, lol) – and i made the dookie look like the cover and i drew a big ghost and had some lisa frank bear sticker on it too i dunno… it was a BFFL thing, even said it at the bottom.
i can’t believe how long ago that was now… almost two decades.
(off-topic) that whitestone shirt above was purchased in my local waldbaum’s for like $6 yeeeeeears ago. like 2001 or 2002… i found that as i was on line waiting to ring up with jeff and his mom. it’s totally a kids shirt, but i chanced it and it fit, and has been one of my favorites ever since. i wear it every time i fly out on vacation, also.
sooooooooooo when i moved to ridgewood, i didn’t bring one of my favorite things in the entire world with me… i’m not even entirely sure why, because i had opportunities with sophie’s array of large cars to bring it over… but for whatever reason, i had left it at my mothers house. and it was the worst decision, ever.
about six years ago, i was strolling through the warehouse part of ikea and came across what seemed like hundreds of piled up, chunky plastic chairs. my best friend sophie had one and i always thought it was cute, and at that time they were carrying hot pink ones… so i grabbed one at the amazing price of…………… $5! (#best) and it was seriously one of my favorite things about my bedroom decor.
when i moved out of my moms house this last time, my younger sister ended up taking my old room because it was larger than hers was. and that’s where i had left my precious chair.
one weekend, we were painting her new room from my dreary dark gray to a lovely shade of dark purple. and she thought it would be a genius idea to stand on my chair to paint an area that was higher than she could reach…
not so genius.
she went right through the damn chair with one of her legs.
when i was 5 going on 6, i got a splinter in my right thigh and neglected to tell my mother about it. i didn’t tell her because i was scared shit of doctors when i was a kid. in fact, it used to take 4/5 adults to hold me down for vaccines, lol. so after not telling my mother about this splinter for a while, it started traveling up into my thigh and i couldn’t sit down… which was when she found i was hiding it, so instead of my mother fishing it out within minutes of when it happened… i think turned into actually being days or weeks. (and she couldn’t get it out.) she ended up having to take me to our family doctor, which turned into a referral for minor surgery.
i remember being in the car with my mother and she was trying to talk me into getting the surgery and going in bravely, without a screaming episode and what not… and i remember my aunt carol was with us in the car and she too, was trying to calm me down or brace me for what was about to happen. my mother wound up bribing me with buying every piece of every she-ra play sets and dolls/figures if i behaved…
#gocatra #goshe-ra #gocrystalcastle #best
so we get to this hospital and i remember my mother going in with me, walking through an awesome play room that i wanted to stay in, being wheeled around through the halls/rooms, two sets of steel double doors and finally also being on the operating table. my mother couldn’t be with me, and i remember seeing all the tools they were using for the procedure being out. and really fucking shiny and scary.
i also remember fighting and being strapped down for the whole thing while staying awake.
whenever the whole ordeal was finished, my mother told me that i didn’t misbehave at all and she felt horrible because i told her all of the tools were out and she realized how scared i was… she said she heard me screaming through both sets of heavy double doors, and that’s why i ended up getting everything she-ra.
i still have a scar from that splinter/the stitches… brutal.
my mother was cleaning out her shed in the backyard so that she could grab all of her decorations for halloween, when found one last big rubbermaid bin of my shite that i never moved out/unpacked… turns out a lot of it was also family pictures, but i found a couple of gems in it worth quickly sharing… it was mostly childhood stuff i guess i couldn’t part with? and a bunch of bowls/plates that i bought from my first apt. with christina…
i found a shit ton of round wheel negatives like in the first picture, which i have never seen before… found a cute little owl picture… and my clunky mofo gameboy. i can’t bear to throw it out, lol. i have a gameboy color with the camera somewhere, too.
so jes and i have been discussing these gems lately… i have two i wanna do something with the two that i have because they’re super cool and mainly collecting dust… broaches or hair bows maybe?! do you remember???
man, they’re not kidding when they say that scent is the strongest sense tied to memory… just watching this commercial, i can remember EXACTLY what these sweet secrets “make-up” pieces smelled like. i can also remember my strawberry shortcake scented stuff, but i mainly only conjure up the smells of sweet secrets and especially my maxie doll… i thought i remembered her having a dress with a white torso and a hot pink skirt, but i do remember this dress and exactly how this one smelled. i loved it. i can just smelled both just thinking about this stuff. #CRAZY!
what’s up vintage mta?
this was life before metrocards… still the days of the tokens, and long paper transfers.
this is some real new yorker shit rt here<3
whenever i use pantene products, it brings me right back to the days of andrew… mainly our vacations because that’s when i used to buy the travel sized jammies…
sometimes were good times.
i have no idea where all of my cd’s went, but i’m assuming it could be that black hole that i like to refer to as “my sister”… but this is what i do have leftover from the 1990′s (a strange mix), that still resides in a cd tower i have (that i just can’t seem to get rid of):
3rd eye blind (self-titled)
blink182 – enema of the state
blondie – the best of blondie
blur (self-titled)
bone thugs-n-harmony – e. 1999 eternal
bush – razorblade suitcase
the cure – kiss me x3
the cure – lovesong (single)
faith no more – the real thing
goldfinger – stomping ground
halloween dance party favorites (not even joking)
inoj/lathun – love you down/freak it (single)
ESPN jock jams vol. 2 (wuttttttttt!)
marcy playground (self-titled)
mister jones – hail mary
MTV party to go (vol 8)
no doubt – tragic kingdom
robyn – robyn is here
sexy finger champs – trash hits the rock
the tony rich project – words
u2 – war
tears for fears – songs from the big chair
yakballz – scifentology II
misfits – famous monsters
misfits – static age
misfits – american psycho
peter feigenbaum recreated a 1980′s ‘hood in small structure form and it’s on display here through the month.
RAD!
(where i found this – more pics can be found here, too.)
is it terrible of me that after watching this commercial, i instantly thought that it was finally karma biting her in the ass FOR HER FUCKING WITH EVERY MSCL FANS EMOTIONS BY ABRUPTLY NOT FILMING IT ANYMORE AND LEAVING US ALL EMPTY AND SCARRED?
:x
…turd.
last week i had a beavis & butthead marathon – and so much of it is so amazingly funny…
but this had me laughing so hard i was in tears…
at 3:15 – the way his head goes back….. i lost it.
also: i have no idea why the damn thing is backwards, maybe it was the way it was ripped or whatever? anyways, enjoy.
eat it up.
i have no idea how i got on some kick of trying to find all these old school commercials/shows/songs on youtube but it set off a song and i can’t find it ANYWHERE.
when WPIX (ch. 11) used to air movies when i was a kid, it was always a big stink and i remember whenever they aired indiana jones they had a mock theme song for the commercials… i remember parts of it randomly… i couldn’t find any videos of it ANYWHERE.
does anyone aside from jinni and i remember this song/commercial as well???
i kind of remember it going:
struck by lightning, chased by rocks, …(blah blah blah).. by a runaway truck… …(blah blah blah)…without a sword? …’cause he’s indy, he’s indy, he’s indiana jones!
RING A BELL?
sooooooooooooo my daria dvd’s finally arrived! woo!
daria was my favorite after beavis and butthead got taken off of the air. it was a nice transition, and i guess it didn’t hurt that it were a lot of girls drawn into the show – god knows how i would have turned out had i still been following those pervy little metal heads throughout my teenage years, lol. the patch above was on my book bag for most of high school (along with some lame alien patch from claire’s, lol) and i used to have two daria books (the one up top is what i have left, i cut up and collaged the other one onto my walls when i was younger…) and lastly, lol… when i began using photoshop (4) back in the day, i created this gem… THEY WERE IN LOVE!!!!, i had to reenact it, lol… (i used to have a program that created home floor plans that had 3D perspective, lol. that’s the living room backdrop behind them…)
#DORK
i spent most of saturday being sick and watching the dvd’s. apparently, both movies are also included. woo! …i’m on disc four now, i’m almost done with it already, and i only got it on friday evening, lol.
ugh! and go figure as soon as the series is released on dvd, stupid teen nick puts it on the air again…
also: daria used to be on the n in like ’02 or ’03, which is when i started watching it again back in the day and that’s also when i started watching degrassi. so thanks, nickelodeon… you supplied me with amazing re-runs and one of my guiltiest pleasures in life, lol.
#DORK #DORK #DORK
(…the rave, lol)
sooooooo my ex-girlfriend caryn and her friend megan picked me up – we picked up my friend pam that i haven’t seen in ages (she used to go to parties with us), we got there, got our booze on – found this young tripping balls boy named peter who followed me around for part of the party… missy and jedi showed up, javie made it with ecca – we all danced our asses off (failed at shuffling, but there wasn’t much of it…), had a blast. i was sore for like, five days. i’m sure dancing/slipping on a flyer didn’t help – but this stu landed on one knee and her hands – i was a-ok o.O …apparently i can’t dance from 9PM-3AM anymore without hurting myself though, lol. i’m so out of shape 
all the dj’s were rad, funk (the dj that was the reason we went at all) went on last, and for half the set he should have because of “some kids that were smoking pot in the bathroom” …whatever, it was fun while it lasted.
so many kids on drugs! i mean, yeah when i went to parties all of my friends were on shit, but i honestly don’t remember things like this going on:
#lolz #ORLY #magicallights #HISFACE!
i thought it would be my last party – but we saw flyers for some hardcore parties that featured dj’s we love… just might have to….
i still have to get pics from pam and missy (although she showed me pics that night i’ve never seen from our cancun trip two years ago, lol, so i can’t really count on seeing those anytime soon), so i don’t really have many to share, but here are a few…
(click the thumbnails!)
lol “whoaa! satan’s got back”
lol if gwar+bananarama+offspring = the coolest people that have ever lived
my humor totally stems from these two.
okay okay THIS will be the last rave of my life, not the one i claimed almost ten years ago :x
damn, it’s been a long time.
i wish i had UFO’s to wear (and officially retire) but they’re all at mom’s. but i got some cute cargo jammies and i’m definitely gonna be rockin’ my saucony jazz’s (raver dayz is when i started wearing them!) and i’m definitely bringin’ a serious raver bop. (if you were a party kid, you know.)
raver mini-reunion BX crew, jersey becca<33, M5 - WHO ELSE?!
venom - skylab - OH MAN! andddd
funk is on at 2:30AM - gonna be a longggggggggg ass night.
#canigetaride #holdddddddddddup #waitaminute
…had to squeeze this last one in – even though i’m 13 minutes late, lol.
i had this stuck in my head all day and it resurfaced when i was doing the dishes before.
reminds me of living in college point and summers upstate at the pool all day<333
between this and “what about your friends” – favorite TLC songs
when i first moved to midwood last year, there was this one summer evening where everyone was flippin’ out about the sky. it was fuckin WEIRD out. it was right before a rain storm… i didn’t realize until kay tweeted about it, and i looked outside to see what it looked like.
i never posted the pictures from that day, and i just found them so, enjoy the strange skies of midwood, brooklyn.
(all i did in photoshop was re-size them. this was honestly exactly what it looked like outside…)
(click the thumbnails, people!)
