by the way you weirdos, i can see that there are over 50 hits per day on this site.

no comments, okay i get the whole not commenting thing… shy, whatever… but who the hell could be reading this?

so i leave work two hours early to catch the stupid LIRR to get to bell blvd. for my appt. with the eye doctor faster, and what happens? they put the train on the damn 20 track at penn station where there isn’t a board showing the stops or that it’s express and i got stuck going all the way to great neck… thankfully a lot of my fellow riders did the same thing… apparently the express train was supposed to leave almost ten minutes before it left the station, and sat on our track.

so i get to great neck and i have to wait almost 45 minutes for the train on the other side going to bayside… it was so cold. again, i HATE the LIRR. lol.

SO. i got my glasses
i hate them. and i hate this picture… i look like a disaster, i apologize. however, i figured whoever reads this bullshit should see a picture of them…

gack.
goodnight.

NYC is BRICK tonight.

so i reverted back to my old em dee em aye ways on friday night… me and sophs were bored, and a friend had some for us. stayed in the dark basement just watching tv… it was a nice little dose of leaving reality for a little while. maybe one of the last times that i ever touch it, it’s been four years + anyways, so don’t judge! i’ve been very very good…. so it left me all achy and scraped up, muscles hurting, etc.

then last night my sister and i went upstate to hang out with my cousin marie… we were going for our bridesmaids dresses today. it was so weird seeing marie in a bridal gown, but she looked adorable and beautiful. and it made me feel like i’m so on the wrong track in life… but then i thought about how upstate life is different than here, and i feel a little better about it. i seem to live a fast paced life down here in nyc… and it just doesn’t feel in the cards for me right now anyways. i just always thought we’d have kids at the same time, etc. and here i am unsure of everything i’m doing at age 27…

whatever! i looked fabulous in the dress, lol! except for the fact that i’ve got these tattoos that are kinda gaudy with a gown on

boo me

lol

so i was actually in beacon and glamour kills was closed today boo! - they’ve got paper up in a new building closer to my aunts house… so i guess they’re moving to a bigger spot now that they’re “moving on up” in the world :\

blah.

okay i’ve been in a car all day today, from connecticut to saugherties back to nyc… i need to relax.

i’m thinking of changing the front of my hair to pink or purple this week. and trying my hardest not to revert back to black, getting it out S-U-C-K-S!!! although it would look HOT HOT HOT with light pink hair. GAHHHHH. i want some blends and black. AHHHHHH! i dunno, we’ll see.

okay i decided not to be css/include lazy anymore and installed wordpress - how easy, wonderful and organized this all is! (doesn’t mean i’ll post all the time, lol :le sigh:)

so it’s friday night, i have nothing to do. but i kind of like that. i took a personal day off from work today to get some shit done… a mental health day if you will… NOT A SOUL HOME ALL DAY it was lovely.

i ended up going to eye doctor and errands, bs. had to go to the bank today to deposit a leftover check from cascarino’s. weird! i haven’t worked there in like six months… it was “money they owed me” from something or other… and go figure that they forgot to sign it. it’s a good thing i was allowed to cash it in the register because i was pissed that i went there last saturday and my former boss completely forgot to bring it with him… wonderful.

SO. the eye doctor says i need glasses
apparently i’m far sighted, thanks to computers. i knew it was coming! just didn’t realize so soon in life… my mom didn’t need glasses until her late 40’s…

hmm. so today i saw one of my ex’s friends… it was weird because i hadn’t seen him in ages and i didn’t know what to do because i thought he hated me. i smiled and he smiled back. cool… i waved with a finger and then stopped looking at his car. i remember when andrew and i broke up - he was the one who said he was “supposed to hate me”… i thought that was a fucked up thing to say, since i always got along with him well. i mean i understand it’s his boy or whatever but i felt like it was just a really mean thing to say… we’re not like 16 and in cliques or whatever. although that is quite a tight crew of friends. whatever. just something that happened.

well now that i conquered this thing, i have not much to do. so i’m going to try to fix this awful header i quickly threw together. maybe i’ll “pack” for my upstate journey this weekend… hope all the leaves haven’t fallen just yet