when i was in the bathroom further away from my office than the closer one, some chick was standing there when i opened it and she scared the shit out of me. i actually yelped.

just before, i decided to go put my hair up and totally wasn’t paying attention in the hallway. i walked into the bathroom, looked to my left and thought to myself “why and when did they install urinals?”… took a second for me to realize and by the time i did, a guy walked in and i turned so red within seconds and could only muster up “shit i’m in the wrong bathroom” and bolted.

the one i went into is across from the etsy office and i heard him go in there after he was done and some chick started lol’ing. i’m assuming at my expense…

then about two minutes ago – i opened my seltzer and it exploded everywhere.
especially in my crotch region.

fuck you, thursday.

this morning on the train, two little kids decided it would be a blast to stand and swing on the pole closest to me… i think they were like 6/8 or something… i saw the little girl start staring at me and talking to her brother… then he looked at me.

THEN THEY WERE BOTH LOOKING AT ME!

i couldn’t hear what they were saying because i had my headphones in. i have no idea if they were making fun of me or not.

i mean, my septum ring was down. usually when kids take notice of it they touch their own noses and are like “mommy, she’s got an earring in her nose”. i try to turn it inside quickly so that they think they were just seeing things… but they kept staring so i couldn’t flip it up…

the fact that i couldn’t hear what they were saying leaves me not knowing if she noticed that piercing and something, or the fact that my bangs are purple… usually kids like my hair, i get a lot of hair compliments… but this time i am unsure, lol.

i want to start doing more computer-free artsy things.

when i was making the dollar bill rings the other day, it felt good to be crafty. it’s a nice outlet… and i forgot how rewarding it feels to make stuff. i was always a super creative kid, i’m gonna start making things. i don’t know what. or for what… maybe to sell? maybe not.

you “need to see me” but we never connect.
sup with that?

i have reactivated my short-lived account on facebook 2/3 times since i deactivated it, but only to snag pictures from people too lazy to email them to me since they “don’t use myspace anymore” (wahhh!)

(mainly my sister, lol)

i don’t have an electric can opener yet… and the other day when i was attempting to open a can of spaghettio’s with the hand held jammy, it cut all around the can aside from two little pieces across from each other on the sides… i tried everything to get that stupid can opener to cut those pieces but the sharp part just wouldn’t grab the can. so i have this genius idea to try pushing the can top in/down so that i could get it open at least on both sides to get the food out.

yeah.
and sliced the palm of my hand open with the top part that was moving up.

…asshole.

last try wound up slicing my left index finger open. i looked down and saw a flap of flesh and blood WORSTTTTTTTTTTT

it was bleeding for like a half an hour

i’m a mess, lol.

nothing went as planned this weekend… worst! friday night i missed out on seeing my creep on saturday night i wound up going out with missy instead of sleeping over jes’s house… we went to yard bar or whatever it’s called… it used to be porky’s.

it was our friend kurt’s cousins 21st birthday so she chose that spot… hung out with ms. teena<3 drinking, dancing… the dj was playing 90’s theme songs… it was odd. had an okay time after all though… still trying to get my hands on a picture of me and some dude with his shirt tucked in/pants up to his nipples “dancing”. oh yes, one of those priceless jess photos. (i’m going straight to hell).

on sunday i went over to sophie’s to see her cousin steph’s baby<3 i haven’t seen her since she had him a few months ago… hung out with bebehhhhhhh<3 we ate some dinner, drank some sangria… just chilled out.

i did a lot of walking in the nice weather and snoozing.

very unproductive, kinda boring
…need a little spice in my life.

i find it funny that people jump so fast to use tumblr instead of an installed blog, what i find even funnier is that i find it insulting.

tumblr is for lazy bloggers. (sorry to my friends who do, but it’s true) wordpress has the same thing reblogging feature guys… just have to actually go install it… content rich blogs get me – not pictures and quotes…

i guess if you’re not big into development you don’t really give two shits.

i integrated my wordpress into the tumblr account i made ages ago that i don’t use, so ppl who follow me will see my posts either way. it just sucks because they won’t see my layout or comment on my posts unless they go to my site physically via the post link or a bookmark.

i lose.

i get that the network is cool…
just know you break this web developers manual coding heart<3

that is all.

jessica: what age do gauged ears seem like omg take them out already
lauren: Idk
lauren: I never think its ridic
lauren: Unless you could put ur fist through
jessica: lol ewww
jessica: i cant imagine having like, mature looking plugs or anything though
jessica: stone and stuff sure
jessica: but i dunno i feel like someday its just gonna not hold anymore lol
lauren: Nah the only ones I don’t think is age appropriate are eyebrows and tongue piercings
jessica: yeah thats why i took out my tongue
jessica: i miss it though
jessica: ps eyebrow rings are decade appropriate
jessica: LOL
jessica: should not exist past the 90s
lauren: Hahahaha
lauren: I had my tongue too
lauren: Unfortunately took it out
laurenguns
laurenguns Lol @ eyebrow comment

four or five years ago, i used to take my ex’s beautiful/decay magazines and dissect the shit out of them… all the graff, art, style stuff – i owe a lot to that magazine. (so do my walls, covered in pieces of the old issues…)

anyways, i stumbled upon a designer named jules kim of bijules (jewelry). i remember when she had a minimal, side scrolling website design – it caught my eye. and so did her jewelry… (always too expensive to throw down for a piece, but still a fan.) and i always kept in the back of my mind this one series of rings she had… and today i FINALLY sat down and attempted my own version of these old school jammies…

…brings me back to my JHS days of hot 97, air jordan xi’s, tommy hil logo tee’s, columbia jackets, jansports with white out paws up the straps, beepers and hanging out with all the cool spanish chicks… we used to make these during class

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…as above, so below (justice remix)

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these will always remind me of my mother<3
i was raised on these full albums. on repeat.
(hover over the thumbnail for the title if you’d like to know what an album is.)

the only reason i truly enjoy windows 7 is because i can “Ctrl+Shift+N” to create a new folder.

:x

…that’s it.

i’m thinking of ditching stujessica and moving on to S2JESSICA.

big things, big things.

i think it’s more mature, and at least then i can tell people it’s to match my freelance company S2UDIO…

…this is going to be a slow/hard transition.

i mean, i am approaching thirty, lol.

i can’t wait until it’s warm again so i can wear my cheap shoes that everyone seems to hate

they were almost destroyed on a rainy day last year, but i cleaned them up nice!

whatever, haters.
shits were $1.99 and they bring me priceless joy, lol.

they also feel like i’m wearing slippers.

although the bottoms suck, so they are slippery.

it’s the price i have to pay, the for low price i paid.

riiiiiiiiight… bed time.

i follow some random tumblrs – but it seems majority of users simply reblog photos… which i don’t mind – i’m actually not complaining about it! but i like a little substance, i miss reading sites like my own… i try my hardest not to just put up photos/videos… most of the time – (if i remember to use it) – i use we <3 it. fyi.

are you on it?
it’s cute and i find cool people on it!

sometimes it runs slow as shit though
worst.

why are people i’ve dated and broke up with so assholish towards me sometimes?

i broke up with people for reasons.
THEY WERE DOING STUPID/UNCARING SHIT.
i just decided not to deal with it anymore…

i’m not saying i’m perfect, or an innocent person – i’ve done some messed up stuff… but i mean if i was actually in a long term relationship with someone, which has happened a few times – i wouldn’t have just left for the fuck of it, or to just break someones heart for kicks…

i just don’t understand how when i get over it, i get treated like a fucking outcast after time has gone on…
that makes me feel like it was all fake and meant nothing.

randolph broke my heart when i was in high school.
i don’t give a shit if it was a teenage bullshit relationship in anyones eyes, i loved that kid with all of my heart and it devastated me when we broke up… he’s the first person that ever really meant anything to me… later on, we got back together and broke up again and have been close friends ever since. he is like family to me and i’d never treat him the way some of my ex’s treat me.

it just baffles me.

i don’t know if girls or guys are worse to date.

this is my little papa doing a trick i taught him!
most of the time he stands up high in place, sometimes (like in the video) he tends to lean towards me so he doesn’t fall down… either way, it only took him 2/3 times to learn this trick. so smart he is<3

ignore my annoying voice :x

haha click here for oscars other entertaining trick :barf:

i think i’m too dyselxic (lol, yeah i just typed that) to attempt learning to french braid my own hair.
but i’m gonna try.

so these were keywords used to find my website this month:

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so the damn USA/CANADA game is over. and we didn’t win.

however!
we put up a damn good fight bringing those damn canucks into OT.
and they only won by ONE goal…

i loathe fucking stupid sidney crosby
:stomp stomp stomp:

now ONTO MY NY RANGER GAMES I’VE BEEN LONGING FOR<3

i was browsing through youtube just now for an 80’s song (shocker) i couldn’t get out of my head and one of the “suggested videos” was the trailer for the new karate kid movie. …right. anyways, it got me photo searching and that dreamy johnny kept coming up in pictures.

is it wrong of me to be thoroughly attracted to the cobra kai a-hole from the karate kid? i would have totally hit that in my trailer if i were elisabeth shue.

i don’t know why, but i’ve always had a huge crush on this dude. i don’t even dig dudes with blonde hair, and he’s the bad guy in the movie… a total prick. what the shit?

i’m in the mood mood to watch it now… about to make that, and some swiss miss chocolate pudding happen.
oh dear, now “you’re the best around” will bring a tear to my eye on the george AND shawn front.
:wimper:

this is my favorite nirvana song. just so you know.
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so today was the first part of our office’s move. pictured above, lol, will show our office on the left (now) and where we will be situated tomorrow (right). yeah, 5th floor. both corner offices, across from each other, lol.

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when i started working at my job, i definitely didn’t know as much as i do now… and when i think back to when shawn trained me, he must have been like “omg, really?” lol… i know i would have thought that with half of the dumb questions that i had, or things i didn’t know being hired as a developer… and i mean, i know it was his job to train me – but it impacted me greatly, and i feel like the last two years was a huge stepping stone for me. sort of into adulthood? and my career…

coding has always been my thing, but it’s at a different level now. and shawn was there paving the way with me, so to speak. i tell him he’s my mentor all the time, lol. i really do mean it though.

anyways, aside from just being co-workers, we’re totally buddies. and tomorrow is his last day at work… no more making faces next to each other, no more lunch walks, no more pointing and laughing at beardo and calling him an arrogant prick and also for being a yankee fan, no more sharing of peanut butter cups, etc. – basically, going to be missing my friends everyday company…

(inspired by my horrible memory, lol – the movie memento… s+j styles.)

sure, he’ll still be online all the time and we’ll be in the same city, but it’s not the same as being work buddies and seeing each other every day… as i wrote him before in a thank you card…

“this is an end of an era”.

this makes me seriously, very sad.

read: funny shawn posts!

i don’t know how the hell i used to dye all of my hair black… this shit was damn tedious and i only did the left side of my head… i have way too much hair… i had to part that in two and do it piece by piece… i dyed half of my bangs purple again. i always forget i get tired of the teal colour very quickly…

so tired.
itchy/burning head.
…off to shower.

so as some of you may know, i’m a huge NES/SNES freak… and there are a few people/sites that i’ve come across that i get all “omg i need to get crafty about”… (including the picture to the left…) but tonight when searching for sheets for SMB3 sprites (ahem – notice the new additions to the header above), i found a picture that has inspired me. it makes me want to go buy buckets of perler beads, some wax paper and an iron… this thing is SEXY. and i have big, blank, black walls that need some colour on them…

now i haven’t decided which super mario game or which scene i’d love to try to create, all i know is that i hope i can make my nintendo dream come true. how hard can it be? aside from being extremely time consuming, i think the fact that it’s all pixel based should make it moderately easy to scale… now i just have to sucker some fellow video game lover into bonding with me over this… coughcharliecough<3

behold the beauty that is the inspiration for this project i speak of:
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for some odd reason i’m almost the most creative between midnight and four a.m. – such a little night owl… i think i’m going to start concentrating on s2udio.com again… i’ve had the poor thing on the back burner for ages and now that i’ve got spare time, i am going to get myself organized – gonna get creative and make some $$$

i was going through old layouts and unused ideas last night. (folders upon folders of potential stuff!) i could totally turn them into usable web layouts/templates for future customers.

about to get on that.

and i love looking at what i used to do, it’s so inspring…
back in the day – it was a big thing for us e/n websites to sit down and come up with a great website layout. (before all you “bloggers” and “tumblrs”, we actually designed and hand-coded our daily updated websites)… not saying everyone doesn’t, but it was just different then… i put a lot into them to make them super creative and unique – and i miss being like that.

i think that’s why i made the “i’m single” and “stujessica” pages the way that they are… that’s the first time i’ve done something remotely close to what i used to in about 3 years, and i like it.

i’m going to be integrating that with what i know now, take over a couple of websites. spawn off a few more…

spring is coming, so are good feelings.

well i enjoy talking about myself throughly!
(i try to throw humor into it too, i swear.)

survey! (you have been warned)
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